Showing posts with label kurt cobain. Show all posts
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Infamous deleted threads from Kittyradio.com (including the Kurt Funeral Parlor post)

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THIS IS A COLLECTION OF POSTS FROM COURTNEY ON HOLE.COM THE WEBMASTER JUST THREATENED TO DELETE THE WHOLE THREAD BEFORE THIS LEAKS TO ANY IMPORTANT MEDIA OUTLETS, SO I'M MAILING IT TO YOU ALL. IF YOU BOTHER TO READ ANY OR ALL OF THIS, IT WILL BE DISTURBING. SHE BASICALLY SPILLS THE BEANS ON A WHOLE SHITLOAD OF THINGS, REFERRING TO A BOOK BEING WRITTEN BY SOMEONE IN THE NEAR FUTURE THAT'S GOING TO SAY ALL THIS ANYWAY...SOME OF THE HIGHLIGHTS ARE: She claims people at a funeral home danced with Kurts dead body while listening to Pearl Jam while people sat around and drank beer...and that these same people carved the word 'fag' into a dead mans chest.... She gives details about the events leading up to Cobains suicide, including Kurt trying to contact her at the Hotel she was staying in, but the hotel managers refused to connect the call to her room... Plenty of other shit...you decide how much to read, and how much of that to believe...and this is long as fuck!



The Problem with Krist

Dear Krist I was concerned as to why this story took on such a "sexy" life this weekend- I know how to handle stories very well - And the no comment mutual agreement we decided on Thurday was decided- as a matter of fact i was very assuring to Jill she should waste zero time on it- i know how to make these things go away by leaving them be. it never fails- so as the story grew i knew there must be a leak- and th eleak has priven to be you- going back on your word in the very forst instance of your new resoltuion to " try to see what can work" I could have spun this and told the truth and very much embarassed you this weekend but i did not- it would have hurt the catalogue of Kurts songs to take this to the public. I also know that NO ONE WENT PHYSICALLY intot he Seattle Courthouse-at any time- including the first break of the story. I also as of tonight now know that you have been speaking "off the record" with reporters at the P.I. I also know that until at the latest this morning maybe even late this afternoon your site "murky slough" held not only your "declaration" but also other disparaging things about me and my family- was linked to the PI s site. perhaps a MONTH ago int he face of the judges decision would have been a wise time to take this down from your website? In your own( now public ) words- "this case is about who was in the band"- as i think you realise that may be true if you were trying this case in the local cafeteria of Spin Magazine 1996- but it is a true and total absurdity in a court of law- as anyone with Civics Class knowledge will tell you. this case is about sidemen who were "in the van" but own nothing but artists masters telling someones wife and heir what to do- when they tell her at all In discovery- the years of disrespect- libel- slander- bearing false witness- sleaze- not copying me or putting the input of the family into anything will come forth- your mothers and daves mothers bank accounts versus wendy O connors and John SIlvas will come forth. it will be ugly. when you made the quote " i wonder what Kurt would think" you can wonder all you want= but the law decrees that you have no right to act upon that. You formed a false "llc" when i was stoned and grieving- for years ive tried to work it out privately and you wouldnt allow that. Then when i prove that not only am i willing to take this all the way and strip you of any more power you may have to hurt Kurt ( having hurt him for so many years in his lifetime and having treated him like shit- and turned your head on his medical condtions and simply boorishly yelled judgements and declarations insteadof helping me to get him fed, seen by doctors, stop touring, you forced the entire situation on me- his wife- a situation i dealt with to the best of my ability because i am his wife and love/d him very much and these things were my duty) and even AFTER this slanderous business"shes a bitch so - you know like- bitches can't be wives your honour" as usual bullshit defense- wich NO judge of ANY stripe is going to hear as legal argument i am gracious enough ONLY because i like Jill berliner NOT because i value your input wich can only be TOTALLY destructive as youve proven time and time again with your ranting against exactly the ghosts wich dont exist while permitting complete ignorance about the music business itself- to allow us to graciously discuss a way where you will still maintain some dignity- have input and in no way be publicly embarassed. i do this also out of concern for you. marriage like blood is a sacred institution in this country and the slander and libel (jersey films lie, Moulin rouge lie, how you are discreet with press lie, silva doing a good job lie- every sentence LIE) you just put me through and then LEFT UP ON YOUR WEBSITE has forced me with no other option but to take this to trial in December. because you can not be trusted on even a simple thing like this You cannot keep your word and Jill cannot control you to not hurt the catalogue. I will inform Yale and Jill in the morning. This behaviour is pathological, and i know as do we all what causes it, years ago i had to go into a 12 step program it was VERY hard to do, and it was the best thing for me- my ability to stay off of narcotics has brought me many blessings and i would hope that for you you will seek help for your alchohol issues wich are only going to in the end destroy your life. Sincerely Courtney Love Cobain






they fired the first guy but they never firef the rest of them i forget the name bliese funeral home? is that it? blaights fineral home? anyway they didnt fire anyone else theyall probably stillwork thier will smart- houston texas-a ttorney at law- call anjdsay "im from time magaxine and i just ofund out about he cobainincident and werew about to bust your chain wide open and ihave one question for you will why did you torture his mother? why ddint you do the right thing>? you saw the evidence the tapes- why did you not pay damages tothis women and have the dignity to not ell her what they were for? how oculd you sit in a room going "ooh shes abitch waut tul i gether ont he stand" the salem witchtrail defense and not havethe ethice to take care of the boys mother? ask will this wait tell him" im doing an expose on the other ase in tacoma( this was the same chain they did sor tof the same thing with a female congresswoman they danced with her and posed her in pornoi shoits he rname i THINkwas dixie) about your whole chain- noone will turst you when im done with you- why was your boner to gety courtney love in stand sao you could talkjabout ehat a bitch she is supersede the damnages you should have quietly paid mrs oconnor without casuing her an image that will haunt her for the rest of her life" calalhim someone lie and scare the shit out of will smart "i am going to th presifdent of your conpany and im taking this vanity fair fromn six years ago out about your practise of cremating the wring people and overcharging for extra fees and all the corruption and its going to make you fired and suck all becasuse yopur witchtrial boner superseded any ethics you may have had- you are abillion dollar a year compnay will- why didntyoujust give this greiveing mothera stipend- she didnt need to knwo why- whmaybe willsmarts biner for this will come back to haunt him charge the long distance to me i an tfor the life of me remmeber thebaem of the chaain butthey are the biggest funeral home chchin in the us - billins a year they ve nbought every mom and pop funeral home and theyve been in big toubkle before but he "fag" was thatnecessary? the lawyer inthe case was seattle lawyer named brian collucio. call will smart thats what you can do for me- make him scared. he KNEW it was no sweat to pay damages bit his sexist evil courtney bitch boner overrode it so hes going to hell i hope anyaya we should delete this tonoght it snot he story i want anyone to hear i was just sad and sick and sad and ims till sad and sick and sad .......he was so shy. she said




i wish i had a xanax i dont have oe and now in oreally fuckeing twisted and sad''']]okay here we are illlt ellyoumore some little shit worked at the seattle coroners office he "volunteered" to accompany the body to the funeral home' when he go there he fressed the body had his friends come and videotaped him andhis freinds dab=ncing weith the body the danced with him then one of them cut him- they cut parts of him and they kept them them he somehow go t ahol dof the suicide note and made tshirts of them then i founf out in areallyhorrible way- somneone had taped this tape of themn dancing withhis body after they shaved his head theres( i cantw atchit) girls sittin drinking beer while thyeplay pearl jam music an ddnacew withhis boddy broken and bloody thye shaved his head okay you wantmore this funeral home is oart of a chain( because edward went thought htis eithme when his moim died he founf out the funeral hime was inthe sam echain and hin andhis briher went there and stayed until she was put int heivern and creamted) the chain is a billion dollar a year business based in houston i decided to quietly and without telling wendy and kim- sue them for ALOT as it seemd every emplyee att hehome dabnced with him and cur him someone cut out his HEART- iwas going to take than money front hese fuckers and just out it in wendys account i knw if i publicied this it would disgrace this poor kid even more one of the guys carved words into him. the word i heard they carved was "fag" okayis this great or what? so apack of lawyers come from housron and in setatle theres noi emotional damages just punitive ones and the lawyer says " i will tak eyou oin the stand for discovery" a nd i bluff and say ": iwill call newseeek there was a vanuty fair artice=le abouyt your insane chainandhow ciorrupt it is" he says "yeahbut i wil get you onthe stand an dmake you tell every dirty bad thing yiyuve ever done" i canthave this onthe cover of time obviiously i say looke gove the mom and sisters a million bicks and make this go away he demands tomeet them they dontknow and i tell them soften the story sa little kurts mom walks intot he deposition room she doesn thear the whole story and still does not know it all- but she just finds out about the dancing withhim it was the queitest i =ever sae her be and the saddestthing ive ever heard another say she starts to weep and she says..... after a long long pause "MY BABY WAS SO SHY" AND the whole roomstarts to cry- and then the houstonlawyer ( hisname is willmsart illnever foregtthat name) says lady ill giveyou 250 thousand dollars right now and wendy stoof up very slowlu and grabbed my hand and said "i dont wan tyour filthy money- not know and not ever" and she leaves the room thats the tip of sad waht would you have me do.? oh babe i=theres more thats sad- thatsup htere buitheres worse stuff too ill delete this in abit and please respect this and dont copy it im really ralaly emotional rightnow becaieue noone knows this outside if the family and charlie and ofcourse krist who blamed me somehow-becaue you now im a bitch willsmart houstonlawyer prank his ass tell him i sent you tell him im a loose fucking cannonand ive gone crazy with repressed misery whatever look him up willmsmart attorney they knew id bnever denigrate his k=mmenory bytaking this to the media while your at it call dr steve scappa in= la and ask him how his : hes not suicidial he justneeds t be seoeratedf rom courtney and frances thing works" hes listed too go on you wan tvengeancde for kurt> get it




CHAD is kurts half brother his fathe ris don this shit DOES matter because io stuffed it in for years and just dealt and now this ass wipe makes this declaration that the judge threw in his face and I made the first move the next day after the judge said its hers not yours goodbye and said what would you liek to do and obviously things will change but i will keep you inthis with me no dave no john no gary just me and you and your lawyer and you can get inpu tfrom dave whatever i just dont want to hear about ti and lets get this ready for christmas but the changes have to be made to wich he said okay did i ask for a public apology? no did i ask for the past to be revisited? no and thursaday someone at the seattle paper found out what had gone down and i said to his lawyer no sweat just no comment on it itll die its tot ocnfusing and they wont figure out what its really about anditll just cruise somewhere into "courtneys martin luther king music war" and noone will know and she was so relieved- and called her client Krist who had the entire time left thsi shit up on his website after making a huge deal about the no comment thing he will always fuck stuff up- he hated kurt- he treated him like shit- i cannot have him around it will never work no dicsions will get made unless of course your a bigger fan of wishkah than youa r eo fany other materail that was krists project i decided to let him do it hi slawyer defended the terrible choices made on there selfish and things Krist ;liked not KLurt- and of course "nirvana" was a band theyve got a VAST amount of money to show fro rit and always will wichis more than hendirxes ( hendrixes guys were also a band and at the time people knew thier names too) as "something he needed to work out" well its indefensible defiling the catalogiue oif KURTS songs- could you repeate that liek amantra please-= KURT WROTE HIS OWN SONGS KRIST AND DAVE WROTE NOTHING HE MADE A WILL HE ALSO DIED WITHOUT IT BEING MORE THAN A DRAFT BBUT IT TOO EXISTS AS A DOCUMENT= A WILL ACTUALLY SIGNED BY US BOTH THAT LEFT WHAT WAS NEEDED TO BE LEFT TO ME HIS MOM AND HIS DAUGHTER AND HIS SISTERS AND HIS HALF BRITHER CHAD\ AS WELL AS PEOPLE LIKE ALEX MACLEOD ( the person mentioning kelly knows that alex was the only fucking persont hat ever other than eric helped me with hospitals and ambulances and the whole other shit noone noone else did and then alex was forbidden to do anything leaving the whole fucking meltdown in my and eric and pat smears lapos) and a few other people in the will people who i have given things to BUT IT DOESNT MATTER BECAUSE I DO THINGS ACCORDING TO HIS WILL AND I CANT WAIT UNTIL WE GO TOT TRIAL AND I GET TO POP THIS DOCUMENT WICH STATES CKEARKY THAT THOSE TWO GUYS AND ANY MEMBER OF MY FAMILY ( think we know who that was i put that in myself) CANT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIS MUSICAL FUTURE supppose i had died first? i almost did once- wonder what that would have been like lots of times i think it would havebeen cooler if i had died instead death cant possibly be that bad- it must be sort of okay or everyoine wouldnt do it so much i bet hed have checked his shit real fast- gotten clean- married someone even nastier and bitchier than me- hehe- who? its sort of a fun game i like to play alot of girls pretend they went out with him- i know drew had this thing about it the birthdaysthe same the basic sweet secret grumpy nature the same- would he have had a winona phase? would he have made friends with cameron crowe? would he have had a movie star girl phase? woul dhe have had a ? who would kurt have dated had he lived? and i died or we broke up? and if iwas watching fromthe dead_ wich i sometiomes think he does ( not into the gavin thing i could feel it) one thing for absouloute natural fact truth hed have dumped those two shits as he already HAD publicly if hehadlived in aminute you know whenever these people say "they wer egtting a divorce" its so sick where do they get this? i once asked our lawyer in themiddle of a fight to get me divorce papers really loud so he could hear me and also maybe stop waving a fucking gun around one thing i know- on that universe of hell we lived in someone was going to die every time i go to seattle i walk by that pizzaplace the last place anyone every saw him except the "dealer" ( charlie cross went and founf the "dealer" she changed her name and works at an olive garden in Portland- she clains she was not the dealer- but im almost positive it was a female- charlie thinks it was arandom dealer of the hill by dukes- he knows actually but hes making me wait until i read the book) i reaslise no way were we ever getting pout of this alive- neither of us wanna know while wer e all sharing how i ended up with tom grant? it was asunday like near easter or something i called the manager - he had split the rehab- i called becaus ei fucking KNEW- the nurse said hed gone for a chest xray fuckin chest xray? i also knew steve scappa the shrink ( whose a total loser and still gets the rockstar junkies but doesnt boither telling them this major FUCK UP of his the ego - this shit head was liek a peacock- HE would control Kurt noone else qws allowed to call him and you know they have this fundamental bullshit thing inthese rock n roll junkie couple things i would like to warn all of you who ever get in a codependent relationship about "we have to split them up" BIG fucking mistake so heres this nurse shes telling mechest xray? chest xray? i fucking knew Gibbhy haynes was in there- i knew all the dealers except downtown of course=- iw ent o Nilers house _ he was ajabberjaw guya nd our neighbour when and this is a rich one when nevermind was number one- like eminem scary famou snumber one we lived in ashitty apartment near Canters it was mall and sick i had just gotten a huge amount of cash froma deal i had made andthats all we had a couple hundred grand in my formerly ninexistent city national checking accoun t so we live don that go tour dope money our food money anyway- we read in the wall street journal that Nirvana had "made Geffen records over 100 million dollars so far" i found it and Kurt said- fuck this and took a cab to Silvas office i told him to gfet Silva to find us a sublet in MALIBU ( a sort of other part of the song- if you were following my swordfish ex bf part i knew Malibu was safe and the dealers would come around less) i stayed home we tooka lot of pictures of each other back then and i for some reasont ook his pictuire when he walked back in the door he was carrying a globe of the earth hed made the cab guy wait for him toi buy and he looks really sad/pissed what happened at the Gold Mountain office? he tells me" i am going to kill Silva" why "Silva is sitting inthere with Kim fucking Gordon and i ealk in and i say look i live in a shithole your about to get a million bucks fo rme in a week- Courtneys got her publishing whatever money we want to live somewhere near the beach and in malibu and we need a sublet" and?<<>>>>>> "silva sor to flooks away and Kim says to me really mean" what- is John your realtor now?>" my jaw wasdropping ont he floor This is a basic service one performs for any client - especially the client that has just mad eyou RICJH when last week you hads House of Freaks - Sonic youth who arent excatly pulling it in despite thier cred and fucking Red Kross whoa s fatr a s i knew had adequete housing so heres Kim this jealous upper middle class bitch if Kurt is to be believed wich unless drugs were the topic with me wasnt a liar at all ( except charlie tells me he made out with a girl at a dealers house when we were married -like i give a shit- id just love to know if he fucked her except when he got that stoned like anbyone who could get it up?_ and i wonder if it wss that lame taco bell chick who posted on here-maybe its true- i honestly dont think making out with someone at the dealers house- priobably the deal;er to get your doipe- counts) telling Kurt that John WASNT A REALTOR! johns a fucking millionare we have stalkers dealers and live in a slium at the HEIGHTH of nevermind did you kick his fuckin ASS i ask Kurt mr pisces man people pleaser hold it inside says noi iwalked out of there then he shows me his hand wich is swollen from punching the wall so i call Silva- "your not a realtor? you fuck your not a what? youy get us the fuck out of here an dyou do it NOW": "mumble mumble" "fuck YOU john" three weeks later john big daddy fuckhead comes through with what? a fucking bungalow in a slum in fucking venice where theres even more dealers- its a slum- we now do have millions and maybe an extra million- and we can afford anything but im calling like "roomate finder" because i dont know how to callrealtors and i dont even know if my formerly shitty and kurts totally nonexistant credit is fixed yet and they are baffled we should have had a nice house in malibu by the beach but you know- Kim says johns "not a realtor" so want more? soo niler was called ratty by most people that was hi snickname and charlie tells me NILER picks him up from Exodus- wich maybe explains some more Erlandson heroics i knew that Eric found an dbeat the fuck out of Niler a gfew years ago but i only find out four months ago because ZCharlie tells me THAT NILER PICKS him up after he climbs the wall and takes him to his house as soon as thhis nurse says chest x ray im like a fucking lightning bolt calling the haed of the hospital in my DSOUL i know ive just missed him but hes GOT to be in la perry farrell? Niler? wheres he going to go? i jumo in a cab and go to Nilers house- i dont know where Perrr lives anymore ( rock trivia btw when Perry lived on St Andrews of the jane says song he was the groovy dope dealer of course on the rare occasions i had the cash for dope i wasnt cool enought to actually go into the house where "jane" lived and perry dealt so id wait int he car while IFiunch copped for us- i also wasnt cool enough to get dope from Fabrice who was the Chili Pepper dealer who "killed" Hillel Sloak- who died because he was an idiot and did dope alone wich- if you watch Jesus's son illustartes exactly why people who do dope alone die and people who dont live) callin geric in seattle and screaming at him to check the airline schedule- the assholes at Exodius wont "confrim" wether Kurst gone= you know interestingly i dont know of one person who went to Exodus and stayed clean isnt that funny? gota have a rehab that doesnt work in la i guess. thye are being dicks but i know "chest x ray" means they cant FIND him Charlie ( cross the guy who wroite the book coming out) thinks Kurt was THERE at Nilers House- now i know why eric stalked him- Eric Niler and his creepy girlfirend are no longer withus here in la but i did recently here his name wherein a certain very brilliant and very fucked up actress that most people who like Hole like alot whose sweet and lovelyu and a fucking MESS asks me int he bathroom at the golden globes if iwant to "go to Nilers house with her before we go to the parties" whoa. ididnt knwo your allowed to be a junkie asn da movie star - they told me you werent- i felt really bad for her mostly oi looked at her tracks and thought how the fuck is Niler still even dealing dope? and why the hell does she think i still do it? lkike id ever stick a needle in me after all this shit. anyway yeah me and charlene tilton- you get it here first i beleiev that Kurt was in the backroom at Nilers- he copped and got on aplane to Seattle you know who was on that plane? Duff Mckagen the guns and roses bassist they get drunk together on the plane and Duff offers him a ride ( another Charlie fact i had no clue) he declines and takesa cab instead I am fucked i KNOW this is FUCKED and the sink is going to fall into the floorboards eric goes to the hosue and grabs the guns and bullets i call SILVA- WHAT DO I SAY KIDS? FIND KRIST AN DGET HIM OVER TO THE HOUSE AND GET ME A PRIVATE DETECTIVE silva- now a rich rich man says " this isnt my job call the lawyer" I call the lawyer= she son vacation i call the hotel fucking concirge HYTSERICAL we dont have priuvate detectives iopne th eyellow pages and JSUT START DIALING and i will always remember this shit the first guy was from 'EAGLE' DETECTIVE AND it houyght he wqas rewally scary- dark little guy the next guy is our man Tom- whatever he looks okay i dont care i nned him to do one thing go to setatle and find this fucking guy NOW he tells me he comes to the hotel im at alot for some hooker business( i cant figur ethat now is that like- blackmailing people with hookers- he teells me some hooker stories i cant remember) hes with some kid of his too if i recall correctly it ell him exactl what to do every dealer- keep one guy at the house and let kurt be= do nbot tryi to get himn to go to rehab let hiKnow i dont care and dont try to stop dealers from being at the house or hell just go to thier house go the carnation house and cheack every room the basement garage the whole thing this idiot goes up there and i have to call the cops because he doesnt- hes too stupid- i tried hiring a secind guy right away as soon as i sent him he was trying toleave the next day and i said no you fucking leave now anyway my door knock sint hemorningits fucking ERIC why the fuck is the ONE person who can prevent this in LA? " i heard youw ere dead and Kurt was here" get back get back on the plane- shit we both looked at each other and i just knew eric went to go get back on the plane then i call Niler to get some drugs for fucks sake and call my mother in law to come take care of my kid and Niler comes or someone of his people and givges me some shitty little bit of drugs wich i do but uits crap and then my arm explodes into a rash of shit want me to keep going? yeah oklay i will so i call downstairs because my arms bloiwng up meanwhile im on a phone with stupid ass fat ss yellow pages Private Investiagtor who is nbot doing what im tellinghim to do anmd the coneirge brings me some benedryl ewich i tak ean my arm stops exploding andf i start to pack and cancel Kurts fucking atm so he cant withdraw anymore money thatw ay he has to call me call the fuckingmamanger again tell him Kurts going to die he now says " well theresnothing we can do at this point" ask him has he called Krist to got he house "krist doesn tfeel this is his resposibilty anymore" knock knock its the fucking COPS west hollywood sherrifs department i shit you not this guy ius named DETECTIVE BUTKES pronounced BUTTKISS i get a traffic ticket from this fucker years later he pulls me and Norton over in w hollywood= walks up to the car and sees me and without one word he turnsd on his heels and runs to his car fucking pussy and his squad concierge boy has ntoiced my state and lets not discuss that i have a hoil dion my phone for everyone bit my hudsband - and a month later i see the ohione bill and on april 3 at 7 something am theres a call from our private line to th ehotel and THEY DIDNT PUT IT THROUGH thats the sweet pennisula hotel where i will not enter ever under any circiumstance- Butkes goe s through my shit and he finds one of Steve Scappas prescription pads that the FOOL left in my room -a fucking dr leaves his PAD in my room! then they go through my safe and steal my pearls and a ring and theres my lawyers idiot ashram ashes the very best day of my life to have idiot ashram ashes from her fool guru that manifests neckalaces and turns them into ashes - thsi si her and her husbands yearly fucking india pilgramige its fucking ashed is ay- yeah right they cuff my ass and haul me into the jailhouse- and im sitting there in the beverly hills police station and i gget this FLASH in my head and i see a FLASH i cannot explaint his an dnoone here really knows me so im just digiutally venting things i dont even talk baout except ti jim and toi edward and to eric but i SEE it an di FEEL it and i know- i know i know i know i know all of th esudden th elawyer appears- a criminal lawyer my l;awyer who has magically appeared -you knwo th eone on vacationthat couldnt find me a real private investigator and she takes ME to exodus now because ilm like group hoime girl noone wants me and i leave frances with her and wai tfo rher grandmother to come and i sleep and i wake up and the television is on to the hospital nature cancer people station theres a wren and a sparrow in a golden field its jsutiimages you watch while you die and i go to touch the remote but i dont - soemthing stops me- i just dont change the channel- im in th ehospital not th erehab part- i guess i just need to be in a hospital i dont know and rosemary walks in my room and she looks dead and i scream. and scream. and scream and i think its an overdose - because eric took the guns out and i dont find out its noit anb iverdose until way after all the rest of you know whatthe fucker did and thats almost the end oh yeah except steve scappa the idiot wont give me a valium- hes still you know"incontrol" because hes odne suych a GREAT job of controlling this insane situation and i get a lear jet and grab my fucking kid and walk intot hat fucking greenhouse and fuck you are tjhose assholes even relevent to this story anymore? shall i tell you what the people at the funeral home did to his little body? shall i? yeah well i fucking wont - shall itell you what the peopl,e at the coroner did to his hair hi stoenails his clothes? his pubic hair? shall i? you havent seen SHIT how about that. --------------------------------------------------- sad? no man those are justthe happy parts the sad parts are worse. thos are just the clips and hurry and actiona nd facts the sad parts are worse and gross and dirty and make me wonder if there is a reason to even exist sometimes because god is an atrocious piece of shit to let some of the things ivge seen happen and maybe there isnt a fucking god whatseover. sick bad things sick sick EVIl things evil in ways that are too evil to even poist eevn when im braindead fucked okay you want it? ill fucking tell yoiu mode even then i have to pull back from telling anyone the SAD parts why the fuck dont i have aneedle in my arm right this second i dont know but some nbight si wish i still knew thos epoeple and if it wasnt for the person sleeping upstairs id be dead- but other than edward or drew who would i leave her with jesus fuck- and oh yeah by the way i agree it should have beenme instead- no shit. how many times a day do you think i wish i was dead? and then i try at LEAST to make myself useful like career suicide might be useful anyway to someone somewhere fuck it






------------------------------------------------- Courtney goddamm president Registered: Jun 2000 Location: but im rich Posts: 406 IP: Logged 07-02-01 05:55 AM profile | | email | url | search | buddy | edit | quote --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- hairshirt with fleas again- yikes no those guys DONT have the tapes Eric went through the house and i have th etapes= although one tape turned up stolen from my home during kurts funeral thats one of the tunes in question NOW lets get this staright- from the supreme court to judge judy - there sint a discussion- someone dies their shit goes to thier family- it doesmt go to anyone else kc didnt have apartnership withthose guys and he didnt want one thats number one number two- the mor eoutragous and lame part if jill emory, caroline rue, melissa aufder mar, jason everman, chad channing or any ex member of any band tried to have precendence over my husband or child in the event of my death in any decision to do with the songs i wroote ( in kcs case he wrote 96% of the Nirvana songs youve already heard and 100% oif the ones inmy- MY- safe deposit box) i would have love dot no tonly put out a boxed set ( wich is a bout 80- 100 bucks and too much in my opinion but a) but also an album of these songs-like 12 tracks period it needs to be done correctly and as the heir to this stuff its my responsibilyt to see that it is done correctly ima lready loaded( for bear when i read some of this inane garbage you kids write- did you see too many tommy hillfiger ads today?) and its not a financial issue although for SOME people it is ( kurts songs that he and NOONE else composed every note and every lyric of and arranged) thie rprincipal and sole source of income- most of Kurts money goes intoa trust for Frances and the rest goes some to me and alot to his mom and two sisters Id like to see that amount to not only themom and sisters but also to chad Coabin increased and id like you to look at Kurts MOTHERS bank statements ( when i give her money wich obviously i do or buy her a house becaus eof tax laws i oay the friendly irs 51% percent of that money) and compare them to Maria Novaselic or Virginia Grohls bank statements those boys have 10- 15 million in net worth for songs they didnt write- thier moms have ranches and nice spreads and i have alot of mouths to feed with Kurts money. In the nistory of rock and roll it has NEVER occured that Elvis or Trents or Billy or My sidemen( and yes they were in a band and yes theyplaye on those records- just like the members of nin or elvis's longterm players inthe case of "nirvana: kurt was "punk" enough especially sinc eKrist had stuck with him to givehim a piece of the rock rather than some salary but he also officially and legally denied any dosrto of patrnership while living- so whoever said he didnt - he did unfortuantely it was overlooked by my attorney at the time but the doicument he wrote stating this was unaceeptable exists and will be brought to court) nothing liek this this lame hasd occured and i dealt withthis privately for a long time espeecially in the light of the whole foo fighters thing dave has a band wich sells a bit not alot but some eboiught o have him obviously wan tto continue his career im not th eone guilty of trading on nirvana- yet i have to put up witht he hairshirt sexism that i am- im a fuckingmegalamaniac- id ont enjoy the power of men-= ask my last boyfriend- a huge movie star who i had to break up with because i could not take the whole way we wer ebecoming kidman/cruise of our circle and if elt people were tryong to give me parts to curry favour with him my whole being was"fuck here we go again" and as much as i loved and still do love thatguy i want nothing to do with being a power couple i went ut withthe movie star for THREE years and NEVER ONCE walked down a red carpet or allowed myself to be photographed with him publicly the whole thing was so disatsteful to me the only time i allowed that in my marriage was when the city of la was trying to take custody of our child away from us and so we went to some mtv thing the three of us because the editor of the la times who was tryoing to help us said " give me a fmaily outing picture" i hated theidea of allowing my kid to be photographed and i hated the idea of being phoitgraphed in public with my husbdan - because i hatethat shit in general- but i did it and it actually worked=t hsoe social services people left us the fuck alone anyway youve built a myth around me aneagtive one- i have alot o negative attributes- i have in fact ashrine to the goddess kali- but the myth you kids have built over there in your kurt reverie is soi off it couldnt be mor e off- and its torture havung to deal with it call me awhore vcall nme a bitch- iw as raised to expect this and i "asked for it by being aggressive and coinfrontational as a and one of the only female rockstars i knew this woul d happen since i was FIVE years old but what i never expected becaus ei was raisede by a feminist ina feminust household was to have to enfdure that males are more important that i was or any one with oivaries is i see this occsasionalky but i saw this inthis thread im not adressing the author=- shes too stupid " kurt had a drug problem - courtney PLAYE D on that? excuse me? is this liek the insane person who posted about some imaginary van with imaginary slashed tires? this si shit- its real deep shit- and dave inparticular has used this shit-knowing a certains egment of dumber an dill informed and not aware kids would "protect"" him fromt he witch i had a severe and terribel drug problem too- one i dealt with -0 the way krist needs to deal withhis alcholism his wife- who iw as glad to have around as she was rational and kept him in check left him she couldnt take being pshyically abused ( i only heard this and wasnt there for that butthats the word in seattle) and couldnt take the drunkenness anymore i didnt want this to be a public dispute- to priotect all invived but its turning into one understand this young lady i and my family "own" kurt - thats estate law for dummies we are trying to get this music to YOU- again in TASTEFUL manner with deals that deal fair to the family and to i might add r krits and dave Universal Music allowed a sample of Teen SPirit to be used on a german dance track called "Monstersound": it went ot number 18 ont he German charts- this is contractually forbidden- andf they are trying to pay me off to get me to shut up abou tit- but they cannot be trusted with one of the jewels int he Universal catalogue and they need to give the masters back- of course this is a nobrainer- and any lawyer can see we have a real opener to make sure Universal does nbothing else ( such as sell songs to cookies and mcdonalds and pepsi all things they would do ina heartbeat if i wasnt around torpotect this) but if i force thehand of Universal well then te hands ont hepuppet strings of the FooFIghter promotional budget at Capital ( same managers and same lawyers) might punish dave mightnt they? its not a questiont hey threatened already so is he compromised? of course he is am i? NO why? number one i dont give a fuck these fucker dont scare me and im happy to go be a field nigger and leave the big house- fuck them and fuck the hundreds of thousands of artist they screw and leave with no teeth and no medical benefits that includes Kurt who should have been sent to fucking Mustiique or Maui and taken OFF the road- and they just couldnt stop coul d they? ask me( or better yet get the book next month) about the time those dicks charged into rehab four days into a detox with some coked out MTV employee we were all fond of at the time- her job? "hoindling" ( a sort of jewish word for manipulating) Nirvana- then other bands sahse was "friends " with and eventually did drugs with Bush etc until she couldno longe rpull this shit and got fired they ( those two guys) marched her into this hospital where theman was dying the ONE day i went to the gynocelisgist and left him alone and begged himt o break his rehab amnd play the MTV awards- and she said "oh if yuou dont playill be fired" and they said " you gotta do it" so he ran from rehab and of course he did dope and then they acted like he was a leper- even though he couldnt MOVE fromt he pain i once grabbed the sleazeball manager in dublina nd dragged him across thehall by his fucking HAIR into our room- there was a skinny broken dying man on the bathroom floor puking bile- he was in morepain than God should ever give anyone " is this a fake NOW you FUCK" i fought so hard ot get that guy oiff the road and they always convinced himthat he had to do it or the worlkd would fall apart hed lose his standing they wouldnt chart etc etc etc or ho aboput ROME you little conspiracy brats now thatyove got me FURIOUS ive put up withthis shit for almoist a decade and maybe i should just take this to fucking trial so the irrefutable facts of gross beglect will be PUBLIC RECORD where at 7 am when i awake to a blue faced rigor mortis DEAD person who took every rohypnol he could find with a baby in the next room and i call tot hese fucking italians downstairs screaming andf then i call the MANAGER and i call well i dont know why biutit hought maybe it would be APPROPIRATE the other crew and BAND members was rtther ONE response fronthese asswipes as this guy is DEAD- my friend lover father of child? noi they allr an screaming and i went yto the hospital alone- im surpised i even had the luxury of childcare gee thanks was there a visit to the hospital as this guy DIED and miracoulsy did NOT> from any of them? hellno you know who got on aplane? his mom and ERIC and PAT SMEAR and manymany hours later the manager where were these assholes? scared inthier rooms while thier writer singer and leader was in an oxygen tent and his cvhild was with soime italian hoitel nany can you imagine goiung throught his shit and then listening to you litle fucks whine and whine andyou know--the sick thing? Kriust and dave have known for years all the things they could say to make you kids shut the fuck up- why dont they? it owuld hurt thier power base woulnd tit? the very jocky dumb fanbs even THEY hated then( although dave the jock has reformned this as your his sole means of small time support but tits KURTS SONGS taht bought his mother her ranch in virginia) are the ones whot hey depend on to say these stupid things over and over again you know i didnt wsan tot take this to any judge becaus eits a no brainer- noone can form apartnership over onepersons property period in any state in any year on any planet but in some ways maybe its best to get these FACTS on publci record- eeveryine knows yet theres a wall of silence even sean and paul who produced live throughthis and were there for most of the writing process never say anything- they never say anyone wrote it but me but they are never MEN about it and say when doinf interviews of the momnst succesful record theyve both made a cou[ple million on- they never say" well courtney and eric wriote it we saw" its sick- that one ive nbever figure out i once started trying to write them a letter but didnt = as my waspy ex boyfriend once told me "iots beneath your dignity doint bother" but it stillpisses me off what do THEYhave to gain? K and D are just GREEDY for power over something they legally and totally have ni power over- you can opine all you want -= oit doesnt matter someone dies- someone inherits their shit that someone is me and my kid end of discussion- llc is biogus was formed in a bogus manner and this is demostrable- but why the LTT producers? is this a feminist thing? THEY know too and yet they never stick it in any interview- why?any smart or academnic feminsts reading this tell me why? is too fun to let it sit? they KNOW and think of poor erics emascualtion he wont address it because hes abuddhist and he says the truth will out and the truth is out edward nortons klate grandfathe rused to say " when the nail is taller than the rest they try to hammer that nail down the smallest" ie- my present Boyfriend Jim was backstage withthe manager- someone he had been friendly with at Harvard-i dont remember this biut this is when he said he "fell in love with me" apparently iwalked in with amassive steaming plate of "macoroni and cheese"( this was Nirvana show) only it wasnt what Zkurt had demanded when he agreed to do this fool tour- i should have done the fucking tours and out him ion an island with frances and some good painkillers and some paintbrushes and clay and i didnt- so i walk in withthis "mac and cheese" and its got fancy pasta and PIMENTO and PEPPERS in it- its NOT Kraft macoroni and dumba ssed cheese- no fuck that- fuck the giuy whose paying us 200=300thousand a night with an ulcerated stomach who throws up bile almost every night-lets just eat our upper middle class newfound riches rock food and NOT feed the fucker who makes us the cash- and apparently i said without yelling" Silva- this is fucking unaccpetable and you have a =na rtist who cannot move and who has not eaten in two days ebcaus eyou ass wipes wont gethim van de kamp fishsticks and fucking kraft mac an dcheese" Silva shrugged - he rolledhis eyes at my now boyfriend and said as i left ) to go to the STORE AN D GET SOME FUCKING FOOD FOR MY HUSBAND WHO MADE A MINT FO RHTESE ASSHOLES SO I COULD FUCKING MICROWAVE IT) "see wahti have to put up with jesus" my NOw boyfriend claims and i believe him becaus ehe smy boyfriend that he nailed SIlva and said " oh fuck you john - your th eone making money off him whyis ther pimento inhis fucking fancy pasta" silva says "its what the other MEMEBERSOF THE BAND WANT" yweah you thinkt hat over you little shit and wonder as to why we hid in our cave i hate revisiting this shit but you go tme pissed- dead man at my feet- hmmmm- call the tour manager? other members of the band? get an ambulance? for dead husband? IDONT FUCKING THINK SO last time me and lkurt saw dave he came over right after frances was born and kind of looked like the popular guy whod just been caught ina real gnarly predicament= hsi meal ticket was fucked up and his wife me- the one you know hed tried to pick up and declard he was going toFUCK three years before- was a mess- hejust backed away i can stills ee him backoing out the door - backwards cos hes a yellow livered coward and you knwo what else? this asshole husband of mine killed himself with a gun- an act if such total and complete RAGE and potency in itsown narcissitic sick and- you know ANNOYING way- and you would take that act away from him? its his act of masculinty of taking his power of RAGE- and you make him into amewling fag who couldnt even take his own LIFE? its sick let him havehis fucking dignity with his own selfishness and rage and possibly ( in my opinion) brain damage from the near forty minutes his brain had no oxygen in rome and he was never the same for the next/rext of his time- and who the hell ever said that a junkie has to not be a junkie? what would you rather have? a junkie who is functional and is alive and living or a dead person thats the puritanical tyranical message he recieved when they sprung thier fucking intervention the one where dave was MISSING anyway anyway this wil get covered in charlies book and i wont have to ever havethes estupid discussions again when i asked my boyfriend whu that made him love me he said "because i thought you were fierce and i thought you would killanyone who hurt your family" i aske dhim idf i was yelling or anything inthe mac and cheese silva incident he tells me i was actually reasonable and not even rude wichid punched the fucker why dont you ask Kurts MOTHER what she thinks? or is she as Krists mother saoid to some friend in olymoia- "she was alsut in high school and shes still aslut" thisis rich coming froma Novaselic whose son barely stuck in aband with Kurt and made him pay every step of the way why did Kurt sleep in the emergency rooma nd under a bridge? because KRIST wouldnt let him sleep at his house thats why shut the fuck up- sometimes i think he deserves nothing his idiotic richmother who lives off kurst songs callingmy mother in lae a slut she has some part time job at the bin marche and kuyrst sister kima nd me want to go inthere and PUNCH her anwyway enogh indulging your bullshit im pretty fucking strong biut this is years and years of this bullshit i became a fucking nurse and i wasnt equipped fo rit really do ithink he would still be alive if i had grabbed him and taken him to an isalnd somehwere? fuck YES and i have to live iwthhese assholes and how they ran thier "intervention" every day of my life and even more so a kid who never met her dad- so fuck fuck fuck these assholes my daughter fuckingcried today about it - out by herself in the backyard as she does a few times aweek and she si the inlky kid in her class without a dad and she canteevn remember him so FUCK YOU i can feed myself fine- i get paid- but even if i could not - it snot your business if you think im a "bitch" becaue kurt was pretty much a bastard and so we were very well suited thanks plus he was my best friend plus jocks like you drove him nuts. thats a natural fact. plus noone of these people= Krist especially considering he was with Kurt a long time- heled him towards the end OPatty and Eric and OPat Smear did that- that includes 24 hour patrol for three mohts straight keeping the ods a[=put of the paper keeping the suicide attempts and there were alot out of the paper- does the drummer in nine inch nails have that? i hardly think so this was a simple case of one aspect ( a partership agreement totally illegally foremd by a smsrt lawyer while my lawywer who happened to also be Kurts was out of her mind grieving and flipping out and freaking- she had arranged his interventiona nd had a nervous breakdown right after his death-s hes okay now but for a few years she was fucke dup she didnt thinkt o deal with this woman and maybe she was worried i mightnot opuull througjh whatever the case thier lawyer - Jill- who i LIKE an awful lot outsmarted and illegally formed an llc/partnership- it hasnt fucntioned- if i say LETS PUT OUT THE BOXXSSET- they say- no- i can still put i tout but im polite or havebeen unitl now and have felt the same stupid gen x "oi well dude- they were int he band" finally a smart lawyer looked at this thing and started laughing "what is this piece of shit its totally illegal! noone forms an llc based on one persons powenrshipo!"




hmmm how loud do ineed to shout again please cram it its not one song= its 120 tapes of songs- songs that you havent heards and that havent been bootlegged there are many many many songs is that really clear now? things you havent heard; theres 8 krist and dave "nirvana" songs 6 eric and pat smear "nirvana" songs and a vast amount of 4 track and 8 track solo acoustic "nirvana" songs covering 120 something tapes with differect types= everything from cassete to 24 track songs thats called a legacy for my family- and my daughter. BY THE WAY ONLY ONE PERSON WROTE EVERY WROTE OF EVERY ONE OF THOSE "NIRVANA" SONGS- THE SAME WAY TRENT REZNOR WRITES "NINE INCH NAILS SONGS" OR ME AND ERIC WRITE "HOLE" SONGS OR BILLY CORGAN WRITES "SMASHING PUMPKINS SONGS" ONLY MORE SO. is that c l e a r ? cl More Love madness folks Highlights: Courtney bitching and ranting and raving about 'joining her side' of the playpen in the effort to build the nirvana.com site...talking shit about the boxset being so expensive, while she'd make it cheap, going to far as to put it up for free as mp3's on nirvana.com That about sums it up...here's the drivel or the poignant rants from a depressed psychopath...you decide: do have it and my duaghter has it and upon my death his mother and sisters have it go watch the godfather those other two guiys didnt write anything hmmm- shoul dchris vrenna and robin have power over Trents music should james iha have power over Billys music or should Ylenna and his mother? should ringo have power ove rJohn lennons music? or should his wife and son? duh duh didhduh and then the botom line is this isnt a question i had it when i wen tinto court i went into court not simoply for the bogus"partnesrshi[p'; wich gives kris and dave pretty nmiuch not much of anything and remember these guys have a net worth of 10-15 million buvcksa apiece for thie "contribution" ie abandoning thie rbandmate etc i wen tthere because universal is a mess and i need to be able to proctect andsereve the leagcy and the sonsg and i dont need daves sleazeball mamanger using nirvana songs dave didnt write as levergae in foo fighter negoitiations i wan the boxxset for 20-30 bucks thois guys want it for 80-100 bucks yikes the golden retrievewr just farted and it really smell




ill just give it for free to anyone i like and kurt would have liked and the rest if you can pay 500 dolalrs fro it or you could get some really cool sweet 75 and foofighter outtakes pick a side and dont be stupid kurt was my best friend not yours and not his lame bandmates other than pat smear who he loved so be real careful about truning his suicide wich was his defiance his rage and his STUPIDITY too into an emaculated fag joke let him have his fucking dignity ir a tleast RAGE wichis what suicide is ( a shrink tells me gun to head is grief and gun in mouth is RAGE) you take that rage from him everytime you emasculate his choise to do this asshole thing wichis undoubtaedly and obviously an asshole thing i didn tmarry a corpoiration and i didnt marry an invalid i married A really really funny son of a bitch who was the most ambitious person ive ever known one ot htehtongs im doing now is a starting nirvana .com the real one where you guys can hgear allt he fucked woirred cassete stuuff( for FREE and idea that thoise other giuys were way unhappy with) andnot an artist direct site ( wichis wher ethe foos are and theyd get bonuses and links if id be afucking tard and do it there so foo man could have more chits) but one built by fans run by fans were also - now that this shit is over doiing a book on random house of all his gross out boy comics and all his funny insane rantings and all his sweet juniour hugh skool; fake band drawings and writingf and stories and love letters to tracy and tobey( ill keep mine tomyself thanks) and the insanley fnny 20 verses written lyrics to every song including teen spirit "were loiunge singers from las vegas hgere we are now entertain us" and his hysterical letters to record companies begging for his big shot wichis the stuff that makes melike him and some of our nastyletter fights where wed have who wrote better lyric fights and they are vficious and funny fcuk you i rule ni fuck you i am the king ni fuck you i am the queen im doing this now becaus eits fun to see people see him as he was and would have wanted to be seen himself not hti sdistorted passive saint person wioth no balls and no sexuality the way you people talk its like he had a three inch dick no story there-0 theman was HUNG - so dont take away the fact thathe actually had a cock knew how to use it and was the worlds sickest kisser you forget he was the best FUCK that ever walked- slam you against the wall and beat your ass fuck- amazing noone is as goods in bed as thatguy was you know the way he played guitar- yeah like times fifty he wasnt some fey mamas boy- hewas a man- not a child and not an emasculated being anyway ill pu tit out now that these assholes are off my chest and the fofifghters are not a concern of kutr ( GOD he would have hated that so fucking much and dave knows it titally-his shame is waht makes him write these inane songs almost all thier subtext firget the courtneys a bitch ones are i m bette rthan kurt i am i am iam the dave stuff has him spinning not the fact that i got my saggy boobs unsaggied0- he would have thought it was cool- as far as your jesus guy hating hollywood? hello? theyoffered hima part in "the new age" and he was jumping up and down he met cusack and wanted ot do a movie with him hemetgus van and wanted to do a movie with HIM he loved theidea of being a movie star- period somneone posted in another thread one of themnore sick evil nd vile things this evening "whyshould wendy have mor emoney than krist or dave smom" FUCK YOU IDIOT BECAUSE HER SON WROTE EVERY CHORD AND ARRANGED EVERY WSONG AND WRIOTER EVERY LYRIC thats like asking why the drummer in hendrixes bands mom shouldnt have the smae a s hendirx go to high school take a civics class- wacth the godfather and be HELPFUL here we want to start a cool nirvana.com and ahve it be great and have stuff thatnoone else has so dont piss me off with this bullshit get tohgether with yourselfs have apowwow and stopinsulting hima nd me and our kid( some other asshole posted i was uh,,,teaching my daughter to be a SLUT?) id say that fine young person ill getyou rip addresand make sure you have to pay 600 dollars for a boxxset do not insult my family- think twice-leave me alone gve theman his dignity respect thati run the show and help us helpo you get the kurt songs you want ever hear"the son" its magical ever hear"opinions" itd funny and sad ever hear" ivy league" its sick ever hear me and kurt havinbg a cuss out contest while singing where did you sleep last night an dlaughing our asses off? itsd funny ever hear the pat smear eric kurt songs? theyre genius wanna hear em? then help us build oiur site get together and banish the bad people kurt would have hated who call me a whore and his daughter a slut and take away his final act of rage- suicide is not sonething we shoudl do but un its own totallyu selfish way thatstuck me with all this bullshit it was his act as a man- letsuse it to help other kids not do it lets make a forum where kids cxan talka bout drug use and depression in a real way without being judged or harassed or talked down to lets prive what the internet dotocme greedheads didnt get that fanbs can build and run a site way better than corporate fuckers lets think about whatthe artwork should be-im open to anything cooland want this to be outby christmas lets thinkabout how tohandle thatthis guy ius dead- hekilled humself and how di we apporach that as a agroup without it beinbg gross? whawould be tastefula nd kurt approved funny ways to do it>? UNIFY WITH US T OMAKE THIS WORK OR LISTEN TO SHIT THAT SWEET 75 MAKES OKAY? do you kids ahve a ckubhouse? hold ameeting- because there will b free files and stuff noone else has and good fore=ums for discussing suidical thougts and real answers about heroin speeddd coke crack etc not some bullshit loveline fake dr drew answers but real answers and answers as to how you can be a great fuck and also a feminist too go convene0 monitor yourself do you arent insultingmeor my kid or kurtsmonmand lets put an effort in to hoe the corproiate assholes that fans can do this themselves you can email brooke with artwork and suggestions andlets get the oficial site iwthfofoicical treats up and running and i dont LIKE playing widow and i dint want to do it iwant YOU to do it anbdleave us arty snarky smarty funny bitchy girls here at hole alone so we can go beakc to discussing hypoatianad shakespeare and the quest if the feninine befre your rudely intrupted us are you someone KC would have wanted as a fan? if yoiu arentinsultung his family your halfway there kc was not some bullying mysinginsit jock he liked me best int he worlkd and i him and as ive said fir everuy bitch inch i am he was eevry inch bastard so we were erresllay well suited stop turning him into something he would have depised you for unify and come back to us without his errant attitude or well run it and we wont let you in degrading me or francxes or wendy or kin did i reallysee a "nirvana" fan oin here tonight calling kin cobain a "dyke" honey you need otbe athe rtist direct limp bixket site- were picky we like nirvana fans whoa re up to standard an dno you cant be in our club if your a sexist conspiracy theroy n=homophobe lameass so UNIFY if your fans and figure out becaue im th enly ine who can build the nirvana .com and i want your help. so help- every piece if shit bullshit nasty remark is only tearing apart whohe was give him the "dignity" r at least gravity his final act deserves stop talking baouthis dyke sister and his slut mother and his whore wife and his slut ( 8 year)od daughter whatis this ohenomonen? you can register with brooke and shell check you out but unify make some rules you dot break your going tohave sine faith in me as i pu ton the loathsome wiidow hat in the pursuit of prtectingthe bext friend and best fuck ive ever had theres alot to do want toput and callme names and fuck thingsup aor as fans want to put some faith in me and brooke to helpus make site thats really yours exanibe your sexism carefully- kurt was the best friend other than edward and jim an dmilos forman ive ever had- he realkky was cooland funnya nd wicked-celebratethat and respect thathe was my best friend and stop the madness of your anger and craziness- your going tohurt himand take away whathe loved sure tjheres always fgoign tobe soem crackpot "shes a whore ahse a bitch" nightmare perosn its your resposibilty ESPECIALLY IF your ihn nirvanaclub t o helo us make thissite magical and secaila nd helpfula nd cool its up to you- goo d luck and chinese food cl





then just help brooke buil d sgreast site we can have it up in the month just unify and stop tryijg t do you r kirst and dave thing- thr jufdgement passed its over- ther would be mo nrivana.com builot by yiu guys if i lket thier sleazebag guys pu tit ojartist direct to sell you shit'] ksit and dave and cahd and ajson were all oin nirvana treat then nicelyliek bandmatres should be treated i am not he shouter here inthat scene btw- kirsat id th shouter and imnot quitig himn now but the marxism/anti commercialism? iknow what kurt would haqve liked shit is over the fans can - the real fans- can build this site with NO interference from me the sit isnot about me we at hole are the amrt cunty girls and boys and some ar enirvana fans and some arent we like to talk about feminism, poetry, tea, film, good rock etc OH theres another greatthing inthe kurt box i just remmebered( theres six boxes of whiw wiritng) its his topo100records of all timeits sso funny krist and dave wer egttoing ready tot rade nivana.com to a sleazy oplace not run by fans brooke has this all figured out and now do it i reallyappreciate the support stop whining baiout krist in= will always try to givehimn his say- he know sthat- hes justtoounpredicatble and destructive ' he sint aLLOWED to destroy kurts tapes and he isnt allowed to turn a blind eye while GAS tried to renogotiate foo figjhters using nirvana as keverage dont worry about that worry about Kurt whow as ":nirvana: kust sole stuff iahe+ nirvana kurt weithpat and eric and patty+ nirvana kurt with eric and pat+ nirvana kurt byhimself doing all these acoustic songs_ doing nirvana i appreciate whatyou guys are trying too do and you dont have to :kiss my ass" or whateverr passed for being cordial and unifeid toget something you and i both ewant done just don t stick up for them- they are rich theywillhave u=input esp krist they just wilkl not run the show and hurt it it should be run by FANS like thisisteis and i APPRECIATE very very muchthatyour making ther efofrt tonot hurt me or my family just dont discuss the k and d situationa dn trust me not to hurt krist either''i could have many tines but i keot hin =m invoilved-so just chille he just has toichnage the strcuture and benmonitored so nothing precious of frances's daddy gets destroyed thats all email brooke shes got a total plan we can have thius up and running within the next twoweeks and it can be a democarcy run by YOU GUYS ANOT ME it snit my site- but i will protect it oaky? so fo t he cool ones thanjs for the truce saty where youa re and have sone faith thatthis guy was my best friend ill ever had and iuwll do whatever it takes toprotect him and the music he left behind. i swear tot hat cl




hey idiot youd have HAD your boxxset and a new"new" nirvana album three years ago if they hadnt treried tgo trade up over atthemanagement for daves foo fighter renegoitiaiton ' and so you understand there is no question about ewho owns what legally and totally me an dmy family own everything if anything this was more of a fight with uniuversal than anything but also a fight to predvent a repeat of the wishkah live record wich was an idiotic disaster the law- the law honey has been decided and id lov eit if you got your boxxset and any other stuff froma dead person as soon as humanly possible as has been my position for a long time why dont you investiagte instead of talking out your ass i read your post and its obvious you want me to read soemthingwhrn youve doneno homework ' thissi about alot of things mostly its about universal and the fact that there are forces at universal who would thrrow this out liek a piece of slop if they dont respect even no doubt, beck. th ewallflowers, sting u2 over there why would the president givce nirvana any fucking marketing and attention? hes like a mad caeser over there and hes on al;l this ritalin and whatever shit hes on im looking for sonmeolace else in the universal system other than interscope to put it out but john gary and grohl ( who has zero publishing repeat that liek amantra= no more than the drummer of nine inch nails who was also a good drummer) want to trade up on th eboxxset sweetening thie rown deals and imperiling its existance would you like to poay 100 bucks fo rit or 20>? becaus eid liek it if you fucking paid 20 bucks god hairshirt with fleas headless stump chit fuck lice lice lice carrion of worms and licve and death death yawn your fuck handheld oxygen shelf is there a god? can i polish his knob? hey antionette! eat your cake and burn yoru bitches at your steak. MAY I USE YOUR OWN WORDS KRIST "THATS A NIRVANA SONG- KURT WROTE IT" ALLNIRVANA SONGS ARE SONGS KURT WROTE HIS FAMILY OWNS AND HAS ALWAYS OWNED THE SONGS HE WROTE WICH IS ALL OIF THEM "THATS A NIRVANA SONG" SAYS YOUR GUY "BECAUSE WHY" "BECAUSE KURT WROTE IT"" CLEAR BONEHEAD

Tuesday, May 1st, 2007

as my rep sod the logistics and dates are not set, ivebeengetrtingtheseofferesfor years and finally decided to partwith alotof stuf wich means nothing to us atthi spoint and wed like to move away from the energy of these thingsand being the stewardsof thesethings, i dontthink there should be ANY controversy about this, PObviously we will keep Kurts most precious things i was misquotede and sounded quite flip, Frances will have tons of stuff for her family, not just a few items, butnot TONS of stuffthat means nithing to her now and wont mean anything to herlater.
i noticed there were 173 stoires on this assuming the tiny little freaks that Kurt would have hated would be “outraged”
why? donteevn nswer i dont care- theyrent a part of mylife and wherever Kurt is im sure he doesntwantthem and thier opionions = as isaid i spojke at length abou tthis withmy former fiancee and he amomngst many many other people said this was defintily emotional progress and the best idea id had in a verylong time, to just move on instead of hoarding these things where noone enjoys them or values them or in my case in some items values them ina n unhealthy way, ihave inmy house secret little thingsifhis everywhere just little tchokes that makle me feel like hes still around and hes NOT, so its time to move on in my life, thats all, im quote cshocked anyone cares allthatmuch, especially as it was a misquote and there may nbever BE an auction. like my rep said again there re no ligsitics wokrd dout some tertiary discussions with some private collectors and some more collectors coming out of the woodwork, but the hassle of an auction might be too emotional for me, someone asked me if iwas coming to the premiere of HTH, and i must say i very much doubt it, its farfar away, but i dont want to relive that or watch other people relivethat-= i will apporve the script and actors and driector withmy team but then i cannotbe involved emotionally anymore-theseareall cveryemotionally loaded things for me but ultim,ately its aboutbeing free of the burdens,steraiugtening out the myths and thelies , and always as in the case of KCs diariies holing morethna 50% of his stuff back from the public,atmy own expense, ididnt wantour love letters published as he woulndthave liked that- ive done a great job with themess of an estate and the rip offs ive expirienced, a bog mess landinginmy lap and a plethora of silly stupid little boytwats who blogthier insane stiff for a few years and then resl;ise how nonsenical they arebeing, and cease, break ins realescape schemes and wire transfers all overthe world and vforged signatures and people ive been in business with rippingme off the entire time= etc etc and most of all nothavinganothe parent to deal with esp now- 14 thats a tough year and imso glad we beatthe odds and are closer than ever, ive kept her ouyt of the contsant films and magazines shes been offered for the most part, and im not going to blag on and on how great i am i just dont understand how a very personal decision could possibly get so much attention.
again theres no dates or logistics worked out just collectors approaching me. and some beginiing tals with auction houses, but i hve mcd ethe decision to move this stuff along now, and if it isnt appreciated for what it is i will just lock it back up and wait for a better time. as everyone knows i am very finaciaally secure and this isnt abou tthe money though i will not undersell it, ir as isid be tken advantage of, its been assessed and im very confident the auction houses will agree with the assessment since the assesor came from an auction house.
so thats enough o fthat topic, time ot change up and move on an dpossibly change pajamas( theyre the ones we got married inactually its juts been a habit fo ryears and years sometimes icveeven felt better werarinfg his socks, but i need to move on in my life nd my relationships s all my friends have told me over and over as well as therapists et al)
ojay i hacvenothing mpe to say on thi smatter i just wanted to valideate what my rep said and clarify the matter to you guys.
im all about personal growth in a lethally serious manner and this is part of whats best for the family and best for our emotional growth as a team.
love
court
and good dammed night.

Tuesday, May 1st, 2007

letmebeveryclearabout my blog last night- there are personal collectors i have heard of - but my team is only dealing with ONE who we all like, i ahve not methim buth e sounds very nice.
The otehrs have either chased me for a long time or aremysteriously coming out of the woodwork through imporper channels. i dont have a line of very welthy people around the block vying forthis stuff- i have an a list team and they are dealing with the ONE person they feel is the most apporpiate as a home for these items, since the media takes things i say and twists them oyut f context i fekt i needed to clarify, obviously i havethe right to speak my mind but i only go through the proper channels in the case of Kurts things and there is only ONE person we are seriously discussing this with.
The rest of them seem like shadow figures and i dont know thiero chracters or who they are or their histpories the ONE person we are dealing with has alot of charcter and is a positive good place for Kurts stuff.
Please correct yourselves my blog lastnightwas to clarify WHY i was ready tp sellthe majority of KCs stuff, it wasnt meant to piss anyone off, nd it seems to have without me wanting to.
My team has decided upon ONE person who is an avid collector and a good guy and thats the person we are focussing upon, noone else again there is no line of jillionares around the block. if there are they ar enot going through the proper channels and we are not dealing with them, we ar eonly dealing with ONE person. Who we all like and think is themost approprite person for this exchange of energy.
i havde busy day and must go.
Please correct yourselves, yes people have cocme put of the woodwork the wrong woodwork, and im not considering them presently i m only considering ONE person who has the right intentions and seems very positive.
Yes id like to avoid an auction and scattering all of KCs stuff to teh four winds, but id an auction hppens the auction houses are very very responsible and also cab be positive thing,
i hoperthat clraifies allthese insane newstories about my many BILLIONARES because that is total nonsense.
doyour reaserch and call my rep who is correct when he says that no logistics and nod ates and times are set yet.
i simply hve mde the decision and if it doesnt go right i willl withdraw the decision but i m optimistic that things will go great with the ONE person my team is dealing with.
i hope that is crytsal clear, my rep at rogers and cowan knows more than me i only hear rumours unless its come from my counsel who i listen to and who are only dealing with ONE person in this, i wont say it again.
pl;ease get that right and correct yourselves you are mking up stories an dbending my words some of wich were impulsive and pssibly misleading- alot if these guys ar erumours, shadows and some have chased me for years - but once again we are only dealing with ONE private collector, an dthats too much information right there- the story broke i hd my say and my say was twisted and tken out of context. or i was not clear enough = iw ork within a team and the team is in charge of this situation and they are excellent atther jobs and i do what they advise me to do, they are not dealing with anyone but ne person,. period.
so please again corrcet yourselves
courtney

Thursday, May 3rd, 2007

thereds apperently press that is sayong including the london Times widch is where i happened uypon this that i am “feekibsg pressure” from “Nirvcana Fans” as we know there re Nirvana Fans and then there are the 16=180 freaks who Kurt wouldcve hated whp i ignore and hacvnever paid attentipon too and thats why i :switched” from an aunction to a private buyer, this is horsepucky, utterly. There MAY be an auction and there MAY be a p[rivte buyer it depends, id prefer to void the PR of a big auction , but perhaps more cfan go to charity and its fairer to got o an auction,m and perhaaps i dnt wan to be involved in an “inverstment”scheme wherein i sell and then the person sells for three times teh amunt fter the biopic or ten times the amount inten years, wich i may dammed wellw ait for, i started a foundation - the Calliope Foundation years ago to provide arts and music to poor shcools wich Save The Music doe snow and oes well, and also to focus on Suicide prevention and drug abuse addiction esp int he Seattle area, and to create a Kurt Cbain yearly grant for a kid out of Aberdeen.Cosmopolis evcery year - an outsider type kid with artistic musical filmic potential, but shit happened and even tho oi spoke wth Paul Allen ( the othe rhalf of microsofT) the state of Washington was too busy taxing my estate when there was a perfectly legal will ( wicvh statute has no run out) and hiring 16 lawyers i didnt know about etc etc, itllallcome out in this life or Karma or the Akashic Records but itll ll come out, anyway i was busy and moving tp LA and i never got Calliope ( onf the 12 muses she wa sthe mus eof Epic Poetry and iliked her for Kurt) i never di d anything with it i think one event once- but foundations are difficult to run and take alot of effort liek rfunning a lable but a big one and theres alot of fraud in foundations when iw as voraciously reading abnout fraud when i had my fortiune stolen i read one of thebetter books on it and it happened to be one about Cjarities and fraud you have to hve real cops watching, and commiited peopkle like teh case of Music cares when a certaon former emloyee ran it he also raN THE grammies- one dinner they raisee1.8 million but the dinner cost 980k, chuck ohillips at thelta times wona Pulitzer for exposing that story, but i chnated two hours ton ight and really thought about where the money should go and since Calliope stillexistst i may staff it CAREFULLY using professional and go to Trudie Styler an dBono to mke sure im getting the best sorts of people to police it seo this money goes where Kurt would have wanted it and we can keeop it where Kurt is from mybe two grants a year in ein grays harbour an done nationally would be fairer for a scholarship, im thinkinga aloud, but back ot the original point , i dont listen ot cvare what those crazed little hormonal mysoginist kids write about me, i bever read irt and ive come to ther point whrre imnot allthe way there ive practically stopped readinganything about myself at all- my goal is to get to that anthony hopkins place wher eone doesnt read the good or the bad, ever under an y circumstance, i google myself occasdionally abouyt ince a month now,m but i skim and i feel bad for even doing that= im really chanting for alot of things right now alot my list takes three pages = verythingf romamterial thinsg to allevaiting one persons misery each day and bringing joy to on e person each day and for true compassion and to understand why iw as born to these parents and to fulfill my mission and create value in all that i do, inevery actiion creqat value, culture an deducation , fo rthat it os makingmusic that does that particularly live music, and stop being so dammed reactive, i think thats my worst chrcater flaw, i canbe so reactive, and iknow it and it drives me nuts because it doesw not gel with the rest pof my goals and mission truth over fame, virtue over material wealth, and if one can amge t both at the same time , i live in shark pool so its a little hard, but there ar egood compassionate people around me and the 9th consciousness the Law the Secret the m,ystc law the shoten zenjin takes veryvery good care of me when i let go. so the Times piece spread about a bit i askeds someone who does read about me, and i m ust say thi sis nonsense, inever care what they say these freaks, Kurt addressed them in the liner notes of in Utero and in countless interviews and it wa sone of the things that drove him to his death, it hurt and wa snot fun and he feklt so much guilt like us falling in love ha dtaken m,e away from me wich was true but it was worth it, Lovehas sacrifices, and i made the ultimate one= lost my entire idnetity forever, and became identified with a man forweve and ever= but thats nonsesne too i have fith i wil nto always be indentofied ewith himwhen i actr and wgen ising i no longer am indentified with him and when i fulfill m ymission wich is writongand playing music live i am me cxourtney love ( cobain) so i just wanted to straighten that out, ive recieved NITHING but sxupport and even the Times reported that ie as recieving criticisim wlel id recieve crticism if i had a perfect 6 pack and became a nun so its wate roff a ducks back, i also haventhad the opportunity to communicate to the public and speak about the music and the issues that mtter to me Buddhism and compassionand changde and survival and turning poisxon into medicine and helopinga s many peple as its possible fo rmew to help with my exirience strength and hope, burt as far as moving this vast amount ( tome its not a vast amoutn compared to lennons sriff Kurt had very few things henever had a chance to indulge himself in any luxury goods or attractive environments he was too busy making golden eggs for others, and pancakers and unplugging the phine withme an dfrances) but its alot of stuff its jiust very rare= and the price quoted i was told will dpuble afte rthe biopic and inten years will triple at thevery least so lets see where i can creat ethemost value out of these things that peple want-= i knew this wehn Kurt s sweater fetched 280 ooo usd for Unicef- it was just asweater tome but it meant the world to this kid,
Iheard about one guy wgo wanted to approach me an older guy whop collected someone else and switche dto kurt because he doesntbelieve there are collectors in that income range that can afford it yet, that upset me as ts nonsendse males 35-45 and there are a plenty of them ar every much into collecting= when is ai dwe were dealing with ONE person he is very priuvate and o plan on being very prubvate about tthe detsils but if that one person doesnt work out the fact os there are others, and they are passionate and not llking top sell or make an investment wich i would prefer-if i sell something to youf or a dollar i dont wan tyou turninga round and selling it for five if it meant alot to me -= tehn again wether its Calliope foundation or a foundation Trudie or Bono ( the two people i woukld take the recomendations from - one my mentor and the other my friend) it deosnt muc matter what they do with Kurts guitar from unplugged otr the Ibanez her playe don Teen Sprirt, and the Mustang he played on heart shaped box of the collage noise cassettes he ,made or the work tapes of the songs as he wrote them= imt hinkings icne franny and KC share a ne xact simnilair sense of humour that his meat collages and comics shoudl be kept for her, and there was ab out 50% of what wa s never publishe dinthe diaries an d perhaps witha sworn affadavut to never reveal the contents iwoudl consider exchanging this to heklp pthers in the various ways ive suggested above.
iev sai ditbefore its an exchange of energies, and my ideal buyer is genuinklya Kurt fan who owning the stuif fwould tke it on musueam tours and woud plkaythe guitars and use things and would value his stuff incredibely, and i could us ethe enrgy exchange to help others inthe ways mentiuoned nd more things Kurt would want solvemncy for his daughter and peronsal investments too bitmistly givingt o other people- rersearch into stmach ailmenst mysterious like him , perhaps even a perfect rehab( ohno i feel a steve coogan pitch coming on and need tpo throw up) ( bless)
anyway No iw a snot pressured by any child blogging if that coujnts as “pressure : wich it sur edoesnt to me or : criticism : wich none would be valid or anyones business everyone can understan dwhy its tiem yot move ona nd to do good works with the proceeds, works tht would creat e artists and promte tehm to stop bullyng to deal woth self destrucrtive fantasies and suicidal ideationa t a young age to hel p ther musicians and to help utside rartists and to grant two yeah imn into that now tewo artists a year one from his home county nd oennatinally and send them for a fukkride to NYU or Bard or wherever is approprate toheklp old musiciamns who got ruipped off who are living nt the streest who made massive hits andnever got a dime, forme to cog into juvenile halls and halfw ay houses an dteach music and arta nd fiilm and slefg belief and value and culture and edcuation to instilla live of reading and to lea dpeple to victory ni matter what - tp show and to prve by exampole that nothing isj impossible aNd dreams come true and as Kurt xchanted with me and listed himself a s a Budhist tyo teach unde rthe lessons of thegreat Biddhist guides.
to build a palace of the heart , using lyrics i dont need to own and hacve gathering dust, and frightwig t shirts and shirts he wore in teen spirit and dresses he wore in in bloom videos and all that stuff, it can go to vcreat so much so very much value inthis world, hed be glad fo rit so would i, and i think thats what sgoing tohappen,
to go to planstoen and tach women how to be independant form sweat shops o theere are so many many things.
and imust sleep because i wak eup do some yoga watch the view and chant, its hoydl be the other wat around ishoudl chant first but its my rythym, id liek to start gettingup more at 6 am liek my friend Trudie told me is teh appropriat etime fo rthis time of year, amnd stop using the net at night sinc ei sometime stend to write things that my bio ruthyms arent censoring from the mainstream press,
IUnany cSDE THESE ITEMS WILL BVE USED FOR GOOD WORKS APPLICABLE TYO KURTS CONCERNS AND INTERESTS AND PROBLEMS AND ITS A WONDERFUL FEELING, AND IF THE BUYER RESELLS FOR TRIPLE INTEN YEARS WELL HAVE FULKFILLED OUT MISSIN AND IT WONT AMTTER A SALE IS A SALE, AND IF ITS TO BE AN AUCTION, SO BE IT, an dio fthe aiudtion doesnt meet teh assessors needs then i withdraw and come back another time,
bti it believ teh stars are aligned and its time now.
i fdell great abotuthis as i wchanted tonight ( 2 hours) my mission here became reallyc lear to me-= this is enough toreally7 change things an dbe a real philanthropist ina serious way and succsfukkly done it grows and grows,a nd f one cares deepky for teh charites they are serving it can only be a food thing
i swear this is true

the ehart is wher ethe true treasures are and the more compassion one shows in every single action thebetter ones life becomes so if you mnust show compassionf or purely selfish reasons at first , it will come natuarlly, a lion is a lion . tht means some roaring biut raringf or comasiions sake and the sake of others joy and teh allevartion of other sd misery.

so yet again to clear ita ll up i as not’pressued : ort criticised:” into makingany decision nor will i ever be by some woyunded children inned of help and fuklopf greed and wraath and folishneess, they r eto be chanted for and prayed for, nto to be listended to, noonews pressuingme tyo do anything idont wnat odo ad uusal my whole life long and thatrs been very very bad andvery very good and i expect it to stay veruy very good for a long time to come and wehen there is siffering i willsuffer whatthere is to siffer and enjoy wahtther eis to eenjoy but aleays keep
VICTORY!!!!!! to creat evalue fulfuill my miisionand become a woman of limitless self esteem, and satya way frof oolishness hell animality an dallthe lower worlds of isffering by my daimokue an demy faith

to feel happy inside is worth everyt material posseion on earth and id o right now- iveben very reactiev lkately abd in hst going tolet go and let gid an dbuddha decide for me, icanbnot contrl the 172 loose ends nor can i c oherently instrcut ther inhow to= it wil all be all good.

exoect the naveen genuius ewebiste mixed with mys pace mid may. its amazxing he sdi maddobnanas webiste but this is nothing lie that its a brulliuantne widea and hasnt been done yet but nothing complex promise youd intahve to be atech head to get this.

love and have a great sleep i now have to get my adreniline down since being online stimulates me and makes me want ogo to 1stdibs.com where the REALLKY brauyitful furnitutr is.

going to sleep blessings upn you all!

nam myoho renge kyo (THAT is the secret)

Court

Monday, April 30th, 2007

In a very secure storge space there is TONS ofKurts stuff.Some thingsmade thier way ( ahem) out of thehouse after his death, i did give 6 guitars away and EACH of them has resurfaced at Hard Rock or in the possession of Billionare collectors.
I love his mother but shes been taken advantage of in my opinion and from now one after our discussion today she will be repped by
proper lawyers by people who approach her for his childhood things so she can maximise her income in these transactions.
IM very dissapointed in the people in the house at the time of Kurts death= Executives and whatnot stealing his vinyl and items, but the most important and bulk of things i am in possession of, although about half of our private snapshots were put on the net- due to a few crooked assts and Brooke from KR who got a whole box of babydoll dresses and a few of Kurts sweaters and never returned them, and fter visting my home snapshotshad simply dissapeared, then again theres the mystery of the Kittyradio.com AMEX wihc charged 758k in 3 months in March 02- two new BMWs were purchased on thatcard and on thatvisit she was driving a new BMW, the mystery shall be solved, there were 17 amesx i was not aware of applied for and money spent, tht 758k was actually FRANCES’S money and i had to pay it all back when we were especially broke, but no matter the FBI are all over it and well find out what happened and who did what at some point/
in any case I am in possession as i said of a veryvery full storaage space full of his guitars amps poetry lyrics hair ( even obviously ill keep some but lots of it it maybe too morbid) theres copies of many lyrics, and casts i had made of his hands,and i dont think the art is for sale atleast not until it is shown in London this year, so the value is made clear.
Ive been approached by several private collectors- and id prefer that to a whole kerfuffle of an auction and scattering to the four winds his very few guitars and sweaters, ( one fetched 140 ,000 pounds t auction s wichis 280 000 dollars) its all organised well and the things from the house wich i broughtto the space for the most part have been assessed by a professional at the very least,40 million dollars, so obviously most will go to charity since the money isnt what im that interested in, but itsreally an exchange of energy- we dont need all of this stuff and other people really want it.
Obviously well keep more than enough of his stuff - hi smonkey collection- thingsthatmattered to him for Franny and her family- butEdward Norton and i had a discussion about this and he thought thiswas thebest idea id had in a long time- move that energy out intothe universe, stop sleepingin his pjs, etc, use the money for good works and good investments.
Theres three billionares interested in purchasing the whole lot, and if they are willing to not attemot to rip the family off as these things will just go up in value, i would be happy to sell it all to the one with the best deal and the best manners towards the energy of the items.
Im not into anyone trying tobargain with me, when the assesment is actually very conservative, and theres quite a few auction houses actually that do this, so the one quoted although im interested in them -there are other options as well.
theres a very large commission to pay, but perhaps - after dealingwith billionares for many years - and the level at wich they some of them try to not pay full value- wich is absurd, this price may seem high but the people who want to sell these things are confidentbecause of the scarcity of his things and the demand that it is a conservtive estimate, Ill be happy to be able to contribute as isaid most of the proceeds to charities and to make some good investments for my daughter.
it really is a mauseleoum and obviously the prices will skyrocket after the biopic and documentaries are done, but im ready to get this burden of all these items and these thingsthat womntmatter to Franny or me off my back, now.
I was approached through a lawyer by another interested collector in Japan today so well see who will just do the deal, take what i dont need or want off my hands and not select this or that, its one lot in thecase of a private collector, nomessing around and no room for negotiation, well im sure a little but not much, theres fart toom uch competition for that, so whomever wants the best collection of his things we no longer need in our world, can have them at a very little price for them.
Otherwise i need to decide between auction houses and wich ones i feel most comfortable with.
Again imdissapointed thatthepeople who were Kurts few freinds sold his guitars without informing me, perhapsit was somethingtheyneeded to do but some of these guitars are stolen.
Producers have approached me about his amps wanting toget that authentic Nirvana sound, etc etc, the demand is huge for thesethingsandhas been for many years, i simply was not meotionally ready to let these things go and if i get messed about i wont sell anything at all until thetim eis right again.
Thi sstory shouldnot have leaked and no auction house should havebeenmentioned but it was, this was to be a private transaction and if not rolled out far differently= but something told in confidence made it into the media, and now i am stuck with it so i felt i should say something about it( the rticle was mostly about my record btw)its a win win situation as long as noone tries to take advantage of us. I will not tolerate that i will simply withdraw the item/s and wait as isaid until the time is right again.
Ive already dealth with one person tryng to negotiate, and i will not be dealing nor will his mother be dealing with that person, i fifnd it shameful when onehas billions of dollars to try to take advantage of someones ignorance about the worth of their own memories or properties.
Havingbeen ripped off massively by lawyers loan officers assts and horrific boyfriends since Kurts death and during Kurts life this will not be happening again.
On the other hand some of these guys seems quite nice and enthusiatic and positive so it should be a win win for all involved with no drama and no nonsense.
justa fast clean interaction where everyone feels good and has a positive expirience from this exchange of energies.
I know of one collector who believes theyhave a guitar of Kurts but it is a fake they were ripped off. the guitars were all accounted for and inventoried. Kurt SIGNED many guitars that does not mean they were actually his.
Anyway i foresee no problems as long as nooone tries to play games here,itis what it is, and in my life noone rips me off ever again. or takes advantage of me. i m afinacially secure and do not need the hassle.
so i expect a very poistive outcome for the charities i have chosen and for family investments, again its justenergy being exchanged money is an energy as much as a sweater or a guitar is an energy.
so thats that.
This is to move foreward in our lives and get on with things and contribute to some very worthy causes that might havehelped Kurt when he was alive ( he was ripped off whil ehe was alive extriridnarily) i have excellent representation and business management now and legal counsel and i did not have these things previously.
so once again this is a win win and i foresee no drama and no pernicousness and a fair and easy trade, there will be no problems here and if there is i will simply withdraw these items until another time.
But i do feel thebesttime is now even though the doc and the movie will push the prices up muchmore than present day, i would liketounburden myself andmy family from all these reminders thatare not keepsakes to us anymore and will never be to my child or her children,
ultim,ately like money its just stuff.
Perople infuse it with value and meaning.
Hope all goes easily and well - problems such as greed will just make sure that i withdraw these items until the right time or person comes along. But i doubtthat will happen.
Sincerely
Courtney

Sunday, May 16th, 2004

any Knowledge Would Be Fucking ….gratitude Is Not The Word


context.and also ive never ever seen a crowd so deep”ranting’????oh okay.well the actual storys so insane and sick and makes me FINALLY suicidial. iwasnt before but i am now. My E mails hav ebeen monitored for years all communications have been monitored for years all checks have been kited since 97 and anyone that might tell got ex nayed “Brookes just not talented enough” Brooke did you know the trust fund is ( under sealthank god because i was speechless until i kn ew what it was that had happened- WHO made an 8 million dollar loan? Who made 14 million in a year? whi doesnt have a pot to piss in?WHO had me arrested KNOWING what might be in my piss?Who uswed one of the sbc verizon att sprint accounts.to forward numbers from la whiole thry eerter in Senegal and fucking paris and who opened PO boxes in every city in america/WHAT Forensic accountant is going to find “Hsbc fowler and poukltry streeet ( obscure area of London) account name”The St. George TRust” who went to Bermuda and geneva and the caymans?now i know, WHY? is the next question? why hide t shirtsa? why daRG OUT THE NIRVAMA LLC CASEUN TILT HE LEAYWE R RECIEVED A 981,000 DOLLAR CHECK- ONLY HE NEVER RECIEVED IT? WHO HAs the INSANITY TO HAVE
“ESTATE OF KURT COBAIN PERSOBNAL; REPRESENTETIVE K….N SCHUBERT” this goes to a lawyer in Seattkle rioght? I mean…even though itsa unheared of for estates to remain oipen TEN years thank god this one IS actally a good thingthe checks got o a “suite oin sunset ( in `1999 the postage bukk oassed a law that all Pruvate mail boixes neded to say PO biox not suite.This Info was found on a white paper- with white out,”box 114″ and “pmb 119″ and at the bottom ” Tony cxannot know’
Tony Mccourt had a divorce with Melissa J. Mccourt Trustee of the Heather Road trust, trustee of the frances bean heathe rroad trust, ytistee of the clarity trust. sinc e1997. This tale doesnt make me look good byu the way.

Since 1997 Melissa and Jim have been kiting all checks and purchasing properties all over the world. Kings Winford..where is that>?
look at this one “NEPA ” Northeastern Pennsylvania property iot sisnrt just biot of them owning properties topgether- ot osnt just the one in Biunghampton ( there are THREE prominsent jim Barbers- an ambulance chaser type lawyer. An Nascar driver or something. a comedian.
and the “prodcuer” whiogot hisself a Biz’ness manager. with one source of income for six years …yeah great idea.
Whjat do you do when his comnp breaks and he sends it to Racksppace in San antonio? What when you foind Dirable Power of Attorneys all ove rthepolace and find out from advances Graphics across the street tha theyve been printing for this bitch for five years- NOONE has ANY POA over me
Scranton slum housing. Haptau ( hers) Macti beach) his Coilumbine Co. ( CLS Chartered flights, theres only three but “only ” three learjets is a TON to me and Frances. and then its insane and wierd but on his Yahoo property list of the Colorado property its so fuckedis a sigil for Washingtoin Mutual( “we dont ask for Id!”) wm refinanced my mother in laws home….at the point my mother in law demanded that i faCE REALITY and trhat this man had isolated me form eberyoine i knew - all of the siudden my mother in law was cut off and rfefinanced- not ny me nbot even signed by me, a lien came out for 1.5 million on ,my loft, i never recieved one bill, thats becaus ei recieve nothing.
there is a letter to Suze Orman- and she was reluctant ( celebrities she avoids- but im so fucked uop behind credit and money- my fica score is ghetto) but took my case becaue she felt bad and because her and my friend prodiuces a show i did wqell on…….I begged the above named to xcontribute one ONE thing in this whole year and we can discuss the entire thing and perhaps you can give me guidaNCE here- because due to the factt hat i assumed 9like a dick) the turst funsd eas having me followed and tapoped it was in fact not them- they cannot do such things……they sued me for making 11 million dollars in 2002- i made 15. oh sorry my add. I didnt know i made this kind of money, in fact “i ” do not .. Kurts estate and Frances Bean make this kind of money, Upon Kurts death, a “glitch” /division occured. My REAL ss# and Kurts SS# were used to account for 2/3rds of mty income- this income is income i do not have never recieved.
wich is why these numbers are so huge and i havent a bank account. My Public Persona has been torn to such shreds that a doctor who WATCHED me urinate and GRABBED the hair off of my head Personally wAs called yesterday ( wait wait wait….as i write that….Jim and Melissa had no mercy aboput starving Wendy and Kim and Brie anne- No mercy about luring me to my own property and having me arrested, no mercy about on the Frioday thaT Franncy was taken from school and iow asnt told where she was and jim KNEW and knew i would have died, if anything worse happened=- he had Julie and Josh taped sayiong they were worried about me, I found out that youy cannot get the loony bin ( 5150 in california) for “suicidial” threats wich …if “Im gonna jump off the empre state buildiomg couunts if..”Im gonna light the first fucking match atthe stake” counts as actual suicide threats then mama lets go, they had no mercy- and a ton of motive. HOW AM I ON VIRGIN AGAIN????? YES i do think its my signature- NO i do not have anmy recioleectionm of signing withthat labek so when it all hits theother day when im foirced to hearemplyee x5 say “shes dozzzing”x6″ stomed good and stoned”rustle rustle like cash ( i havebt foujnf maccourt versus b ( allegedly for Bricklin- shes from PA and “ran” the ” legal department at geffen” if this is true i dont know. I wne tthroiugh barbers 95 ND 96 Geffen expense reports and im sire thye feel the sam way—- have a mistress whatever- but on our dime? and that wife number one? working two jobs, two kids- ONE he impregnates her having this extrmarital affaIR WEITHME- now im too guilty about this fore words 0- but i figure all that must ne the ‘BITCH MONSTER OPPRESSOR EVIL WIFE” that his hokm elooks like a morgue and he seems so disconnected from society and its rules- far more than me- or even inhis narcissims and small town social contracts likw Kurt- cept Kurt was validly creative and he was moral. we trangressed morality me and this man. His tale to tell about the “im,pregnationm: was that he was YAWN PLEASE( i get my strength through this all from Heartless bitches international whose emotional manipulator essay is pure genius
‘ I went to get my stuff and i guess i knew it was the goodbye fuck.She grabbed me and pulled me down and i said are you safe and she said yes, and i had sex with her, and she seemed so smug….. of course it never happened again ( yeah kind of like when he swore to god on hios childrens lives that hed onkly had sex with melissa in sepotenmber and October a few times and a prostitute named Vanessa
** Prostitutes- Theres a fortune in hooker services on my amex under all sorts of names- and then theres these chartered trips to Vegas last month on”his amex-= he somehow squeezed mine off his- what with ALL of Kurts tshiort money and Dean going to a small towen in Lousiana and selling a Loan they made for 2.8 million to them and making another loan for 1 ,7 and they start a mortgage comapny and the carnation house Kurt bought for cash going to ” The truistees of Courtney Love” in 1991 without me knowsing and the Chase “p[ayments” going to a bank in Pheonix where they also own a bout ten houses- shitty ones- On THAT Washington mutual loan - the next one wich goes throug Northfork bank ” TYruth In lending” THAT application actually has Dean and Melissa and jims shit on itMelissa buys a BMW on my amex i always thought.Acvtually NOMelissa Buys TWO BMWSTWO LANDROVERSAND THEN THERES THE PORSCHEat christmas after jim alegedly “totalled” a porsche wich three years previously i had told him for hi sbirthday i would leas hima mid life crisis porsche for six months
The man who did these taxes was named Kurt Vittola from Gudvi Chapnick Oppenheim, and if it had not been for my former nannys love of Frances i would not have seen the entire show and i want to share that with yiou.POlease copy this fast.Jim will teaR IT down. Brooke youve been paid 1-2 ooo a month every month as a priority- and we need to talk- any survivor of my employ has to know- “know” youll be supeonad beause VB used Kitty