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Current mood: determined
i di N interview woith whAT SEMNED LIKE A VERY NICE lady at usa today about Posting- w chatted an awful long time and i feel very very stressed when i cant remnember all that ive said
i try so hard to be a good gitl- i know i named dropped an awful lot -it just sort of happens peip;le who inspire m ate mty frins whatnot come up never ina na insulting way e cptteh bizarr accindeal “quote” in a tab…. talkd about princess Ai bing in th paper [ im in this space ralking to rhis v ictims of crime psychiatrist whjre ive begun resharing the tale with people without even knowing im doing it an late ae night now i start to think really bad thoughts, wellll shit you wannted an honest post im giving you one, in the old days in 94 after my husband had died about 2 months later i started posting on my site abnd i had this whol elittel galaxy to those of you too youn g there was a time no t only without an intertrnet buyt there was this thing called aol- it was the forst tim mostr of us punters lsitemnd an you could get your mil here and i usd to c all him Steve Lower case to remove stuff ididnt like
he was cool h would come to loolapalooza and came to a hole show once, it was if you wre fampus just a bulleutin board about yours;f i love these social networks cos abybody can be “famous ” within them for thier g raphics — CRAUGS LIST MOMET I NED TWO DESIGNERS- ANYONE FROPM THE STANFORD DESIGN SCHOOL IS WAY WELCOME-= NBUT AT MAJOR L;ABEL;S WE GET GRAPHIC DESGNERS AND IM FDOIBGTHINGD A LITTLE DIFFERENT- ID LIKE A GRAPHIC DEOGNER TO GO TO ABOUT FONTS AND ICONS AN SYMBOLS AND ETC AND IF LIKE A SESIGN SHCOOL PERSON TO STARTTHINKINGABVOUT EVERYTHING FROM HOWE TO CHALLENGE A CD JEWEL BOX MERCH FROM ROCJ SHOWS YER AVRAGE TSHIRT COTTON PANTIRES THING BOULEVARDIER WILL OPEN AN ACCT NAMED CLMYSPACE2@GMAIL.COM TOMORROW OF HE HASNT ALREADY XSEND ANY INFO THERE OKAY?:
an for music sorry hste to interup[y one thing 2 things actually id oput on craigs list well 4 things0= anyone from Otis? anyone wanna be a seamtress on an amazing new line with amazing one of a kind crazy italian an d french and london and somne china bought fabrics and notions -
input also welcomep- know your leavers lace from mouuseline- and know how to order a bag be made in a chines factory= w wont be making things in china = i can tell miles away -= by the way other then the Dekkers lingerie wich is the most exciting original lingerie i ve evr ever seen donrt go expecting agent p= marlene dekkers is her name i think? shes dutch = stacy dashes great line is called Letters of marque- its all silk cotton victoriana, www.lettersofmarque.com. its afforDable an dthe oppoite of ekkers lang in his prime- uber femme- its basically my entire former stage wear = leavrs lace is the lace we see on victorian whites- its made of cotton and stacy told me there are about 100 looms in the world left- sh based here ntire c ollection on a victoriasn co,mbing jacket i hav several
i didnbt know ie was called a combing jacket- and im a little aarrogant hubristic even about my fabric an d trims and i believe i need to spend a wek watchinga lacroix and a gaultier couture show= with lacroix i once even bought a lacroix jacket in the s outh of france- i never got the clothes but ten years of couture collectionz mags im starting to understand how important they are- why theres so much of these horriifc wasted fabric so beuatiful anfd so ouutragously expebnsive shaped ina terrible cosevarvative vrsace on iotd worse day meets prom dress for mom - god what iw ouldnt give for dome of thse notions and buttond sna laces and silkns and new metallic textiles and organioc v oiles and orgsnoc tulle-= im amking that up ther isnt any yet- the dress im wearing on th pic ture opposite is th first Never trhe bride ress Clares Pattern for the m ost part= but i had asked for sleves and shirring-= its very epnsive victorian lace and we took it off but arounf the empire band ( my huge ribs) is a belt with studs we didnt second guess the studs craze of giles and robertpo ( givenchy) in gold or this prossums fall studs- i mean what afantasy= going to london next sunay an gett he punk stufdded platforms ehe punk studded purse and the 10000s of punk studs on the trench. o think a brad be it or a prson thin g object has to hav a few rules- you nees to kno wthe statitics of the innovaters an dthe early adopters of youve got a new idea say for indatanc i put aside the past wich is gutting me like a searing hot knife making m glad i dont have firearms in th house,. womndering if maybe i should take some sort of anti depressent - but it goes away as soon as i put the books away thw crazy cooked ones- theresw so muc h i have to do- becaus eothrwise ther will be wil goose cghases an my credibility must be impeccable- names i dont know of for 4 years this girl i could not =stand got a paycheck from me- then theres pretend peop;e and cash delivris your not dupposed to notice, from courier services i never hard of with stements like”BACK DDOOR BELL ONLY” in october 02 theres on day qhebn im at oct 02 ( im nopt in the country by the way) theres not onlya 4 milliuon ollar loan in the moriniung but theres cash dekivery, none in 000s, in ehings like 6589, all under 10k, i dunno all in on delivery isntther that tak,ingf out ov rten k in cash topo much law? jus whne i got to about 995k in cash delivere to my house in one day im so sad and i turn thr page and it goes ovr a million 1.198,643.88 cents oct2, 03. i have to do this, AND youllundrtsand why in a few mnonths but it removs me from the present and makes m crashingly depressed, and all tyhat i have on my fvuture an don my present a few things
i could make 10x this amount if i could letthis go - seriously- truly let it go= karma doesnt stop atthe shores of maui and la county line- or antelope valley ( nopt much unincoprtated in calif- but that one is) the fbi has a list of the top ten states where mnotgrga fraud occurs the most- and it resonats teh way ateh 7 princ ipals of a good brand resonate- in terms of wire transfers ive seen and mortggeags and loans whos social securty numnberd were all those people? deceased? probably- id call in my loft aND maybe ONE out of 20 calls was helpful t
and oh poor me yeah i liost it all- im no t lookinfg for pity - i drank the kool aid- but if ate in omn ot an the gove an anuthorities turn on YOU instead of going after this heinous thing wich has so says the forensics psychiatruist driven you mad- or even a police depratment to write upa report that all ones tvs are gone, becaus one is sucha n object of d3rision at that point
far more was stolen out of my kis trust han has been put back and i called them an dthey refiused to help-= well well get to them= well see whT THEY O WITH them, and each of these b mgrs sign a contrract that ihey willl under no cricumstanxcs sign fpr anything pmlu i will sign ONLY I SIGN fo rthings always s broken mor anfr more aggressively ONE DUDE IN O3 within a fw days was braking the contract, but worse he saw what washappening an he just walkd away claimning iwas toomnuch of a mess to deal with- the shrink says ” anyone would be a mess- you must stop blaming yourself
” and triu to get me to say the word victim again and again, in my religion ( Nichirin Buddhism) we are our envrionments and everything that happens to us is our responsiobility, its our karma , an w musrt own it= okay i amn the victim of a series of heinous vicious an technically psychotic crimes- bizarre and frocious ive never seen human evil like this- well ive sedn it in someone seyes and moral bhaviour but uh….that was ovrly covered this week, in Nuy case i was felling bl;ue i nee only get them two files from two agmncies and one ocument and icant do tht myseld and finishthese lesged anx timem yself so i dont start feling sucideal thoughts wich aooremnytly is vry common too after these crimes - i mean put 1650 crimes ina basket and call it crime. anywqay so yeah i need a mentor someone who has designedd and wantsto look at my sketches- help me figure out wether to go liuxury and both - i love juicy as a model and i lovethos e girls esp pam- and i love hedi but he probably doesnthavethe time-
i need som ehelp with lyrics - any lyrics will b sentto tyler first an if us3 them you will get a publishing fee- if youfeel more comfy copytighting beofre snding them to cl myspac 2 gmail thats cool too go from im not lookinto the eyes of a alading man
someone who can really tak command
- the topics arroganc pomposity th dream of beinga lading man willnever evr happen and no it has nothingto o with this week anyone following me knows leading man applis to may a dude= arroganc pomnposity people who enjoy preying on othrs inferiority- inspire me stiuck to some rhymes- an i have to think of a brilliant small c horus it was karma fades it never goes away- butthats weak- anywone who i use inthis willhav free tix to any show i play for lfe as wllas publishing, ihavr a pattern cuttr and a program firector i n3 somone who really knows iimnpirt export- posssibly has been pt premiere visionare fabric show before is up on textiles the new japense mill tyextiles and mostly someon whose an eprt n hosiery on how w chang the patterns on the looms cost? theres loons i think at jantzeen i saw an oprah where 42 people had touch one pair of spanx befor eproduced and if you know about txtile mills how they c an do “couture: bodysuits tighs” an things out of lingeore lace- this i need to knbow= an you knwo yopur all outthere obvuiously sone o fthis is chat an som o fthis will b consulation paid and some of this will be onsite work in la paid, also anyone with extensive contacts in the cosmentic communuty who wantsto mentor or isucss with e the many monsters who lauch th stilas an the tartes and the scott barns aan skincare- these ar all thingsid go to class for but allyouex perts pout there……lets interface. iahev some great ideas. a;so in la theres alather guyw ith th ebest skins where c an i fins this guy? fdowntown? iwant oft gloveskin but cool patterns.
alos one mor ewor on the grat dekkers stiuff check it out and letters of marque.com yopullsethe collection ots sexy anc affordable a letter of marque mant if you wre a pirate aN YOU HAD A LETTER OF MARQUE YOU WER ALLOWED BY TEH COUNTRY WHO HAD GOVEN YLOU TH ELETTER OF MArqu roto plunfer an dpillage. IN MY CAS NBO I INT SIGN NO DAMMED LETTE ROF MARQUE BUT AS I TOLd THE USA TOday lady karen yes sometime sit is theraputic. to post ( oh ill be in ny for fashion week anyone eligeble fo rthe last list cosmtics textiles ifyou wanna meet an dyou know your shit and costs etc so ican putthat into mny buseinss plan) ( im not even talking about prffume!~ noons gonnz buy a prfriume b y me presently n o mattr if it was better than fracs!)
I was uber sark sprssed, i mean not reaady for th hospital biut sharing wiuth you all, iwas really sad gutted about this money stuff it dod dickand knwoinfg i may meet someone who we can change each other s lives graphic deosigner design designer- etc- hosiry an lingrie fabric person= catsuits too- im exite and i hope your out there i o ned a graphic designer, soneone who lovs for fonts.
is anyone the massiv3 fan of sam taylor wood as i am?
okay my kis on th treadmill- i think someons feeling good about high school.
i need to sleep some. i feel alot better.;
as for winehouse thats so fishy- its liek someone trying to changetheh sibject by a ccysing me of something i know nothing abouyt never sai an nevr would hav said- lie i said my philosphy on sex rugs and rock n roll is if youc a- have fun- ifyouc ant try at last 90 days not 28 at rehab and 90 80 12 steo neetings if it taaks reasing the secret fir mne to dragyour asses to the gohonzon nam myoho remge kyo that babty is the sceret.
Shout out to Miyo coo! you rule some o fthe goth lolly is nuts but its art i love it i just know with suzuki who iw anna wear to ny fashion week rthe shoulders and ribs needd to be widened alot- ivgain..ed a fw pounds im stillthin just not a stick and are we okay with the hair? i love it, thanks at courtney love.com for allteh constuctive c opmments about the darker blonde hair and also the bob was fun bit ive ammed well dopne the bob now. gonna watch reruns of big love, an d thin k about my hbo day weds i think- dont worry the records on track just mixing we gottarecord trashy dirty girsd anf one more carc rash possibly amaybe another one an i haveto rcord leadng man and last will an testament and can you mnak me cry.
nam myoho renge kyo
lov to aall
courtney
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