retouched pap shots. liars. fishy stories and evil.
Current mood: angry
you know how sometimes your lipstick gets wonky? wellthats THAT,. its pretty vile they retouch my mouth to make it look crazy wierd and like a cartoon.
sorry that mouth does not exist in this or any other room ive been in
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BUT i just got a bunch of weird /freaky /cool crazy stuff from Japan
including wierd contact lenses
and theyve been sorta fun to run around in
but they photograph wierd so i dont think i like em anymore-=
its like when they make your cellulite ( wich i actually do not have ) ten times worse with retouching
anyway i had my Manson moment with my contacts the end.
over it.
sharon knows thats NONSENSICAL but she was too cowardly to pick on Elton who shes apparently vicious about behind his back . Ive never heard this then again we dont… hang .
Desperation or someone on a kamikaze mission- ?
..hmmmmm?
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and Madge who she must just be scared of-=she just avoided that one. hmmmm. the plot thins.
love the kids.
Love Kelly love Jack
love the dad,
hell i even thought her and i were fine
but she m ustve been sooooo scared and desperate to pull that one outta her butt, cos its just so insane
Thous shalt not bear false witness. ESPECIALLY ABOUT CHILDREN! i Feel sorry for her that she resorted to such abusive lies
. I hope she learns a little more about karma. bless. Sorry but,when it comes to kids i just cannot no comment.
I feel alot pf compassion for someone that desperate whow ould resort to such insanity.
i sincerely hope she gets well soon and stops playing with peoples lives.
i keep throwing ’The Secret”at the wall!
Current mood: dirty
ummm……dont explain and dont complain right?shut up take yr p[ain and play that guitar right? see the Hubris the lies the inanity and stay still nom atter what they call you
STAY UNCOMPROMISED INNOCENT AND NOT BITTER AND NEVER JADED
i loathe the dammed Secret i keeop reading it anyway. chant dammit. oh justtwhazt stop a bad negative thought? theres a LAw of the universe a LAW. and for an effect you must first make a cause not WISH for one!
every single time you/ me uses our power our talent for money for sex for “impressions” for yet another discussion on BRANDING we are WHORES.
I JUST WANT TO DO MY JOB I MAY HAVE GONE TO A C LUB DANCED WITH KATE AND WORN THE SAME PERFUME A MIST OF PEHAGLIONS BLUEBELL AND DANCED WITH LITTLE LILY AND HER BESPOKE HAT FROM HAYMARKET AND ASKED KELLY OZ WTF HER MOTHERS PROBLEM IS! HELLO ! IF SOMEONE GAVE MY MINOR CHILD DRUGS ID KICK THIER DAMMED ASS I WOULDNT USE SOME NONSENSE LIE THAT WAS GOING AROUND IN 2000 BTW COS MY BROTHER WROTE SOME EXPOSE AND IM TOOSCARED OF MADGE AND ELTON SO IM GONNA HITA SOFT TARGET no comment.
ended up in front of i dunno 100 paparaazzi with my band kids n we stayed up til 9 am just writing cos that i can do;
write and man oh man oh man oh man it is so fucking beautiful to be able to have people with a totally different perspectives and cultural backgrounds to lean on -ive been in soooo much pain soo hurt
had to stare at a box - knowing its a blessing that the irs audited me for some particulars years, and the reaLIty of pure evil -= hit me over the fucking head and i could not move i was ina shimmering death mist i had to move for a while get my ass over here play music get on some airplanes.
Things done to my child for spite, spite pure spite to a 9 yr old. to kurts sister who has never gone to college and just wants to have her little farm and her horses his mother who justw ants to garden an d make things pretty, and they killed my heart -they tried really really hard but karma doesnt stop anywehere it doersnt stop in Palm Springs or Maui or Los Angeles it keeps going like a bullet whizzing thru the air so they will get what is thiers.
i willnot go onstage unless im p[repared to leave my guts on the thing and this record comes out when its good and bloody ready and my personal problems wich are vast - well they are all there- like dirty diamonds on the record i havent edited a thing from my fucked up twisted heart wich i try like hell to fix by chanting everyday and when iwas laying all twisted up in bed afterthe profiler/psych/forensic tried to explainthe nature of pure evil -= after living rosemarys baby = seeing a credit card witha whacky name or brand new luxury car or the lamp i saw on portobello road that i could not afford - and it dissapearing …….noone will know can know what that gaslighting was like it drove me mad and itwas always designedx to.
My religion states that my environment is a direct consequecne of the causes that i make or have made perhaps in another lifetime,sonething went really wrong, somethings go really good too, but all i know is that all that matters is that right now i have bloody stumps for fingers cos i dont have a pick not one and all i need to do i NEED to do is let it go, is walk away, breathe it out,do this shoot with Panos ( fucking genius) Ypianis and Sam(fucking genius) Taylor Wood maybe go record demos at i dont kno wthe cheapo places
just toerag cos it got so hyped by white stripes= its easy to you know homage white stripes=i have one its just came i only have one chord tho- its an e minor duhhhh i think it needs an old strat and some folkie lyrics witha few double enterndres MAYBE and midran ge for days no bass no treble bu tthe vibrato way the hell up, like an old Curtis Mayfield record-
maybe illtake a dance claSS - no way will i ever do much more without a guitar cept hang up[side down on a pole, i dont mind being too fat or too thin or out of 100s of paparazzi shots they seem to retouch one or two to mak emy lips look all chapped, or maybe they were - i just know i have to write the NEVER COMPROMISING TRUTH. and stick with it and i have one dammed job and i have enough people that get me and care for me and ,love me. an dethats all that matters and karma doesnt stop in Maui or LA or LONDON or Gloucester or Belsize- but this photo is very work intensive, and then in our bluebelll mist last night my dance partrner tells me about how sam is doing alot of chinese s and m rope photos and im intrigued but i sketched what the shoten zenjin/ forces of the universe put
into myhead and gave me a vision, and im gonna get a tattoo over that shitty old angel = prellle the oldest fabric companyt in the world in Lyon makes a yard of fabric pre day has 250 years of sketches and loom patterns and they have one Thistle- le Thiste- its beautiful
i dunna think i have even a DROPLET of scottish in me but the pricks and thebeauty of thistles have been captivating me for the last three years, and although getting this dammed cheapassed tat removed took forever and bloody well HURT im ready to get Le Thiste on my back i want Le Thiste everything and bluebells and whomever lives in P{ortland or Eugene you get one thing ( othe rthan Myrtle on the the 101 wich is only grown in Israel outside of Florence Canon Beach Devils Punchbowl etc) in late March and Early April called Daphne, and my god i can smell it now its just makes me happy to recall the smell, smells are fun and i love them, smells and textures and building textiles, wich im gonna do this year id like to see next week or so what the French made for Spring = whyd oes fashion matter to music? i dont know……theres some connection and its fairly deep = i dont mean luxury brands with the perfume with its 1200% markup fantasy that allows someone whod rather have a luxury brand perfume than a song, sometime if something smells really really good or is truly beautififul; i like it too, i just dont like thinking about the factt hat 40,000 children die of starvation every single day and 750 million people live far far below the povertty line and since ww2 theres been 200 wars some stillbeing fought. notleast the war in america of convienice over indivuality- like anyone or more than anyone im frail fragile and fucking dainty as a porcelain teacup- a hothouse orchid a white lotus i cant grow unless i have the right conditions. evil isnt one of them.
truth, and my curiouisty about life and about all of you gets the best of me= i make a terrible celebrity i know this- but i do i do ido leave my guts on the stage and despite the commodiftication of my words and melodies and i dont kno wthata growly girl is to everyones taste and i dont care atall…..b ut i believe despite our fantastical humaness and ability for enlightenment and human revolution we are HERD ANIMALS.Yes we have leaders Innovators “early adapters” and all that bullshit -but we follow the leader….like gazelles.
but it comes down to texture to music sometimes to taste( Lauderay Chestnut Macaroon) or Smell ( Young Living White Angelica wich btw does have white lotus rooit oil and blue tansyamongst other rareities) same brand sandlewood, joy, red cedar, acquah vitahs larch. young living Myrhh and Galbamum Penhaglions Bluebell, Fracas , WQestwood Boudoir and Carnal Flower ) and clothing i went to coco le mer yesterday and i had to have a pair of about 1930 panties ….i hope we are not herd animals but more and more science says we are.
i have to go write a rock song now. enough of tastes and smells and textures gossipy nonsense and fishy subject changing almost to an overwhelming point.
sound is all that matters. all is word , all is sonic.allis TRUTH, and nothing else matters.
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