Sunday, January 8th, 1995

ok this is why im leaving carol im so dammed reactionary to petty shit

ok this is why im leaving carol im so dammed reactionary to petty shit like this one WHOA the nin crew said i sucked?Im laughing so fucing hard, how would they know they were all too busy getting sucked off for passes. Nine Inch Nails(and if we want to discuss band name semantics that one wouldnt take too long to figure whos got a slight inferiorityu problem!)are the only band i know off THE ONLY ONE (this includes suspects such as stp and alice and chains bothe who- surpising to me have a no sexual favours for passes law inn thier crew) onthe alternative fray with a backstage and crew situation goin back tpo the poofy haired ice age that Kurt helped kill-tTestament ,Warrant etc- like ive said our bus driver drove a band known as The Bullet Boys- they played the Off Ramp in Seattle - a club with a 250 capacity(ieNot an Arena)Girls would line upto get on the bus, band and crew would ask them to remove Thier tops-and TO THIER FACES -THESE GIRLS WOULD BE TOLD IF THIER BREASTS WERE ACCEPTABLE ENOUGH TO GET THEM INTO THE BIG “SHOW”, gag me, but arent the Bullet Boys and Warrant looking for thier dayjobs back ifnot behind the counter at your ;local 7-11,Point being that NINs crew are the vilest rockjockeys out there and of every single show we played with that band (9 or 10)WE recieved the major accolades in the press in most cases A picture of us would appear and NOT Trent,i dont know- When it comes to rock critics - i just think pareles at the NY Times might be auspiciously more qualified than the only “alternative” road crew still accepting blowjobs,btw that sucking noise is some poor idiot girl with low self esteem in Peoria believing the lie of early eighties Motley RAWK,Courtney-The actaul one.(ps I am not saying I believe reviews good or bad I am saying we kicked their butts most nights clearly and easilyu- if not neck and neck with the exception of night one where i got shitfaced-remember heres a crew who trolls the audience looking for girls “cute” enough for the fucking ante room, i felt as though i had entered the halls of RIP Magazine)

Wednesday, October 26th, 1994

its true we loved aerosmith

its true we loved aerosmith went backstage walking by manequinns dressed in Playmates lingerie-as well as a cupid pisssing in a pool- ie; some roadies job- but fuck it rocks etc….we had a great time with Tyler - punk beliefs aside- fuck it- hes cool and Kurt really opened up and so did I, in the car , after, we kinda got embaassed- ahhhhh- we kissed old school butt-ahhhh- but we looked squae in the eyes- and cracked up SO HARD– hell it was cool- Stevens cool- its his tradittion- and from anyone else esp- my school(NIN-Alice_ Ministry backstage scene) but its ingrained in tyler and somehow forgivable-I really dont care- he doesnt hide it- we love/d Aerosmith- Kurt never dissed him- fuckin’ look at that cool body of work- anyway no dissage from the Cobain family to Tyler full on respect- thanx C.