hey all
sorry i havent blogged much i think th eroxy shopw is a few days AFTER the 13th i cant say the date bit tix willd ef get given away to p[lenty of you all oj the la area. i spent til 630 am on my space looking for japanesecellist, i found one giorl finally who KNEW one but o love sernedipity cos i thoight maybe i freaked her out or she didnt believe i was me but she sent m usic and pics opf Yuiki and shes so breathtaking beautiful! and her pakying ois fucking amazing, she sent me her carnegie hall look, sinc eim not really into dresses right now onstage i want other people to wear whatever they ant- i love biilly bnut i dont belive you have ogt have”costumes” like the pic sof him i saw from paris, hes just being nbilly we lways want what we sdonr have wich is him searching for an “image:” i heaRD HE WAS REALLY POLITE TO THE aindiebce and made jokes atr hios opwn expense and ws quite proud of him for that.
i kno wi sai dmidmay for the new site but i only saw the new skins yesteray nd apporved them its the lachapelle shoot i was gonan sue as a n album cover- it almost could be in fact it coyld be totqally bit itas not wuite right.
as askin its gorgeously lobvely im also playing davids show for his museam opening nid sept in Milan, ion Mobnday my British rte coming, My baby i sgoing to camp so itll be band camop at my house, wich will be fun. io hope irt all gels. Linda is of course beong very helpful for plan b musicians, of tehse dont work out but it hink i picked rea;ly magickal peop[le reallys epcial, one looks l;ike jessica rabbit and cme thru the css girls and i thought no way can she play bass and she kicked my ass and i was really anti chick, another went to cmabridge for sanskrit and is a level eofght painaist and harpist and ana dventuress and i really like her shes about 6 1 and feels vcery auf der mar ish. theres things i wnto do with her hair…….but shes quyite teh goddess.
anothe ri found otu lzter models on rthe sidde and is late cos hes comingf rom milan, but illadmit it irtol;atlly hired him cos he looks os much like kurt iots wierd, and he casn pklay reallyw ell he didnt kill mne but he swore ivf i cvgve hima week hed learn everything, hes blonde an d soooooooo beautiful and his guita palying is great the other is agiuy from band called larrakin love hi sguitar playing blew me away becaus eits jusrt so fucking MODERN its johnny greenwood an djack white andf now and he snot stuck in any nineteies rut, the drummer is unbelievable and my really groovey trendy lonfdon friends couldnt stand my choices wich is a great signa s much a si love my goorvy trendy famous london friends they are mostrly conmedians or nme stars already and trhey dont udnerstand what makes a band a good one anyway, aqnd my last band and nopffenxse to any memebr on that band was the worst band ie evr had not becus eo fthe indicviduals but the swtte i was in sucked i didnt play guitar nd we just blew togetehr= dsam radiop davcine lisa alla re great and great musicians but it was terrible band= i heard rust never sleeps one night and hits live and i knew id fucked up bigtime,
patty wa stechnicallyc onsidered a bd drummer- but she could rock 200,000 people and 2000 people and 200 people like noone else= one doesnrthve top be studio rteady tp bring it.
so wish me luck id hate if any of these guys got lost or didnt ma ke the cit having coen so fr and having gone to afarm in the uisle of swight ( minus liam the beautiful one)
and reheaRSED TIL a they feel theyev nailed it and ive ben workingevery nightw ith my studio guys leabnong the songs there son punk song called loserdust and i swear my froearm os atrophioed it stunga nd burned so fucking bad after three takes pof loserdust wich is pubk song, in gona put how dirtuy girls get c lean sans drums back on the record maybe even track one it wa sin the doc, its so fuck you and radiop ubfriebdkly and were recording anew rock song called crashing down working title monday and its rocks reallta hrd THEBN im fgonan feel the record is totally balancerd out, it needs to xstart at the kroqs, not the zdfult acs thts like puttingme at asxtaarbucks i just do not belong there.
im sooooo sorry yall have ha dto wait vor the site, naveen and me are metongft omorrow hes coming if form sf and wellahve it sorted SWEAR TO GOD within a week ,
he apologises profusely for no0t having it up mid may, im enbarassed c os i fongt liek asaying things an dthem not happening.
so london is on my bdaY, BUT I CNT SAY WHERE, and ny is on the 12th or 13th an dthe roxy s a few dfays after that,,,, theyll be a way you can sign up for tix on the new site, there will p[romose imde sir ethats a featiure, wehve good famncy s[onsirs for the shows, nice high end brands nopt like beer and phone copmp[anis, we aimed a little higher, my mgr manged among many many othe rthings the yeah yeah yeahs and i really like him alot and am gettinga longw ith homa ndfeel completely val;ued an dundrstood by mgmt for the first time ina long time l;ie i have aprtner not a daddy.
trust me i dont need a daddy or a mommy. sopme people do bette rwithout them. im one of them.
i hope your all good someone is spredings ome insane rumopur that i quit chanting, firstkly iull NEVER quyit chanting again , i chant every songle day in 2 years ive skipped five days and always shit bad shot happens ifi dont fully do an hour of gongyo an ddiamoku ( ima nichiren buddhist wich is where one repeat sthe name of rthe lotus sutra “NAM MYOHO RENGE KYO” on fromnt of a butsodan or a gohonzon everyday and chantes for desires of form andf f romlressness adn the happiness s of others esp those who hte or villify you, i really feel bad for Paris, shes a friend and i cant tellyou but i know what the medical condition os and its fuycking ohsycoally inhumane what saur is doing to her and its NOT normal 45 days and she finally broke today biut after what she wentthrough cos county si one of teh sacriest pkaces one arth ive never had the pelasure but ive heard,. id scream iof i hd to go back rthere aqn dthe mnedic al attention shes recieving is nil, its so curel an dinhumane iofyou gusy kne wthe truth ( we share a lawyer and donte ven say hes bad he always wins thos one he even knew and like dthe judge and the judge went to church in the sunday afte rhesentenced her nf riday and got a standing ivation fronm hos entir econgragation wich is really really CHRISTIAN to me NOT)
she has somne serious medi al issues and havinge piernced what she goign through i cannot even begin t oimagine going through that without mnediucal attention, people have died and had siezures from whatxs hes sufferingf rima nd obviously theres areason they are keepinjgir private im so bored of people guessing yopu know how whe n you KNOW a secret and have to keeep your noth shit but allthes epoeple are guessing teh secret the bitche son nancy grace i wanted to kill this is rrewlly a witch hunt, 5 days would have been normal;; for a minority parole vilator, i am disguetd by the applaus epeople threw down at the mntv wards the closeup n nicholson real;ly biugged me= i like jack, hey ive mad eout with jack! ( i kno wi know there snot alot i have not done dont ussually kiss ntell biut it was forevcer ago and itwas real;ly nthing)
but the close up onhom really bugged me knowing what i know about hoew jack abnd the law dont exactly get along in any levcel and noone ever tried to bringhim fdown fir the things hes done wich are entirely illegal, but het hes jack nicholson i was upset at him for klaughing and clappinga ndgenerally ehs a total gentelamn maybe he didnt knwo she was there, b it half that room hs done worse and when teh community clapped for her goping to jail the y wouldnt do thst rto even ME or Downey , i thought id seen tne bottome of public humiliation, but paris has topped mne an di ffeel nothingbut emopathy for her an d am gona wrirte her a letter every day shes there.
or try. i gave 20 day sto whip thios band into siugar deathsstar sexmagick sugarwhip
bananasplitshamanrubies and diamonds.
my bean in off to camp an dthen shes gonnas be an intern at a famnous rock magzine! shes reallyte xcited bot5y that,theyre alittle concerned coxs sheso young i blame almost famous but thats what she wanst she got offered to intern on a fuilm a biog noc eone and witha photgrpaher w3hsor a geniu sand a designer whsoe egnius in Ny and she wants to intern atthos magazine! 14 is 14, shes got her manny wiuth ehr and sshellhave fin adn feel better about herself cos 14 is so wkward sghesbeen ahving hard time like kids do, hormnones an dstuff, and shed hate me talkingabout her so illshut up, but it wokrs otu good sonce five people have to be here at the hosue and she knows its band month but hteres pnety of room and a guest house too, just british strangers, im praying they will ALL work out cos i love that they bonded on their own, cept the one who ha dor go tmilan, hes pretrtyd ammed good actaullyt but yeah he is the cutest boy i think ive seen in amillion years blonde and just …easy on the eyes in the esiest way, everyone wghotrioed out was great, i chosre based onc hemistry and how people got on with each other adn spnics they amd rtogether and i eansts judegimng them on mucvh else biut chops an denergy looks came on adistant fourth, fter star sign.
nyway the new site wilahev atix rtegistration andf i hoep NY willgow well …..Ny are a tough crowd we really gotta be n our game, ogh yeah and im also keeping dirty girls 2 the other version co stheyre bookends ones cute like a chloe dress, ones dark nd sexual and liek a storm. so itsx not laziness i just like tht both songs saythe sm ething ina very different way incukldung sone of teh sam elyrics, ones cute but deep and ones just cdeeply deep and frpm the depths of my derspair and soula nd written on ten minutes and sick and fuc ked abd nooebns touxche dit but me. so tehre it is kids im tired,
illblog mo einf iture i just wanted to say hi an dthanks for allyour comments!!!! yoru allfucking cool!!!
lots of bl;essings an d respect and i hope you will ifyour feel;ing stressed or npot gettimg what yoyuw ant fromthso life look into soka gakkai international ( sgi) and nicheran buddhism its like teh secret but it works way faster and mrtoe effectively.
alsio i noted cos my kifd bought it i w osn teh cover o fthe national enquiterr AND THEY ASAI DI WAS 115! i cpuldnt wlk if i was 115, im bog gile with bog dhsouldes an rribs and health is really importamnt to me, hugely, ik take my kyo green an dflax seed oil and omega 3 every day and isopure shakes are the leader in whey and protein, coffe and niocrette patches im bgoping thru hell tryibngto cut back on smoking - tryiong tpgetto half a pack a day an dthe aquit when i get to ten, iom donw to a pack a day from two, but ist a pain and each fight of the urge is a little mini war, but i thinkof all ocve been through and i can dothis, if i dig deep into my own karmsa i believe our environement is direct refklection of ouyr lif econdition padt life andthios lifr karama nd i believ vert very stronglky that we can trun poison ibnto medicine always bu practicingthsi bvuddhism-nbot to mentiont he cospicous bnenfits wich are amaxzing the inner life condition whrn ic pry on fofth pryer fo rpescce and happiness for all livingbeings iu focus for a longt ime on epoepl who are vicious to me an dvillify me- mostly 30 people or less whatever the numebr on a cruddy website wich will be gone soone enough buit i fdont gothetre to read it eight months ago iw enmt and then peiple tell me the illegal dtuff te4hyd o nd i saks 3dsneone tonifght to please stop etellingme whattheyposty at ll unelkss it zffects the litigation. i dojt wanna know, bit iosncwerly pray for them and their misery and unhappiness to focus so negatively ib eevry move acelbrity makes or cdoesnt makle is the worlkd of animailty and hinger an dhell, it cannotbe fun or create value, anyway enopugh abput the talksers im suing to toillustrte that real evolution can be made in yopur lif ethrougj a derious spirtual; practice- you can fliup all negative karma around, and atre proetected byteh univers ein a jilliuon ways and dramatic terible things just dont occuir becaus eyoua re no longer crretaing them ince tyotke total resposnibility for the life you have ypu can dstart tp heklp others and feel empathy and c ompssiona talltimes.
ireacd bput leanronga nrealusation the life condition right above rapture and right below boddisatva today and its ai dsomethingbotuy howe leanring i liem wlking a misty mountaain so longf you know every shrib and every trasil and every patheqay nd every crevice nd abyss and rock
and relaisation is going miles away fromthat mountaina nnd looking at it fiormn adistnac eand zseeimnga mountain a beautiful mountain buta lsi KNOWING tshat mountain too it taight me the obvious haard work is mandatory, but ot lead to what you out in is ehat yoy get out,
im also sorry the record buysienss is what is t is i wouldve love dtop be tourongthsi album,already if i had afllrelease but theres a reasonf ro everyuthibng, i need months of set up time its three months leads for covers nd for pieces and for marketing plans and etc. and making sure i havethe suppirrt of radio and mtv and etc.
si its a pricess abnd idont knwo whats comibf oyt christmas biuts omethjingtell sme cold[aly s and im not even going to attemott o go up against them, thi sis ehokl enerew game then the last record,. wich we allknwo was disateer for em itt snot so bad in some ways the pricudtiuon bliws biut it jas four or five god songs in it bit one cant”almost: make exile on mainstreet thats like almost being pregnant. alltbe ingredints were there exceopta band that as bonded and reality me on drugvs in snot kieth on driugs im the leader and s such cannot affiord to be nd rygs
ithink i just kept everything insid eme for so longa nd then i picked arellkly evilman like the clich ei sometime sm and he and a group fp assts and lpoan officers and busienss mansagers stole evry penny they left me without money fopr my KID, vut weve built ourseves back up again, and are pretty much set. its allgood and thatd due to the chanting totally 200percent, andf ivcebeen sober for 2 years now so sonetiem si hear abotu callosu posts about me being on drugs itsliek wish fulfillnet thatw ilnbever hapebn i havent takebn anarcotic or any spirits or wine for 2 years now. nd i enjoty myself more and mpre each day especsaillyw ehn im in the klace of rpture cdopingew hat d best wich is playing music ……..kearning each otf tehse sonsg so teh”courtmey” versions of tej rythym guitar keeo rhe band grinding and provid ethe texture taht mkles me suck when im bt opakying guitar to bve honest i didnt much like the hob thing. iw as prett y miserable withall slow songs and no guitar and im glad soem of my friend scouldnt make it because ite wasnt me, i play guitar, if im not you knw3o somnethibngis vcery wrong , bit ni mor ein in good plavce abnsvery very veruy happy
i hopeyou all are too.
love courtney
thansk to the japanese giurl who recomended yuiki!!!!! kawaii!!!
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