i read it and its a lotta academic =and id idnt knwo there was aqpsych hospital at Yale-= i stuill didnt really get it whats she saying- that the lack of teh cortisoid thing stops the regeneration of braincells? having tried anbd rejected prozac vecause it did “woprk:immediatly h yeah it :”worked: alright i felt like i was this tiny tny hiuman in a huige tin can full of cotton gauze,nightmare- i dont take abilify anymore- i trook it under several doctors advice because of teh druygs i had taken there was a defintite issue with my brain needing to “heal” now i take nothing, the chanting seems to fix any synapses fucking up and the stydying that accomponies it every morning sometimes with ORLANDO and other buddhists who come obver and chaNt with me, the hardest days arewhen [people cant amek it and i gotta drag myass ocver and do at least an hour by myself but if i do two hours wow- the shttha happens- itsmagical really rtuly, maGICAL,
anyway the song came out very whte stripes if you count only drums and guitar as whte stripes i donrt know its a hit but its real and its a screamer and i need to fine tooth the lyrics now.
LPs inw ith Alicia Keys and hansrt got tons of time, so we have to work fast., its still forming but tomorrow were gonna do 12 hours on it and perfect it.
we need a real rocker id have preferred a teen spirit buit we all would prefer a teen spirit for fucks sake, i mean drum and riff druven wich it is biut in a white stripes sort of way- youd never know from listenong thatthat wa sthe reference, but that was the initial idea to keep bass off and just have drummer and me on guitar, well see, so far its called can you make me cry- but thats nit gonna stick,.
thanks fo rhsrong yoru stories and dont worry about me and the forms they are so few and so evil the few times last month i went over there i felt like dante in opurgatory with the sea of people whose arms are begging you to get them out of thier sea of greed lust wrath sloth and animality and misery. i didnt take any of it personally=but itd oes annoy me the bipolar sexual harrasser who pretends he knows me and has been top lunch with me and been to my home rhats creepy creepy,
but hes just a sad case- lives with hos parents in boston and scams people for auto insuiramce for a living- and is obsessed with me- apparenty hes quitre a humuculous accordibg to two girls on here who had todeal woth him and both had top change thie rnames an dnumbers after he stalked them one gota restraining order but he can stalk me legally ( he thinks- wellsee_) beyond that i took none of it perosnally- they arenjttalking about me, theyre fantastising and im the object of thier desire, and the y hate themselves for it-= because if iwasnt theyd simply stop obsessing, they caNT Waitto gethome from their pathetic jbs they created in the world because they cant cereater something positrive in thier world and post about my latest comments or stories to you ior posts, we have a great site ahead of us.
and itll be fun and well allearna lotra nd hiopefrullly the point i to become better educated and better people all round.
why walk thru stinking hell? esp when so many othe rpeople are doing it for my lawuers and for thsoe of you pretendingto particpate i know itshard and sick and bad energy but were so close to gettingthe switch turned off and hosing that place down- they can have a site anyoen can the KKK can- just not using my trademark name.
goodnifht an dthanks fo rall yoru stories i hear you and this is such a fucked up society, i know it was puppy wasnt it? throwing a puppy down the stairs, what stairs? we didnt have stairs, we didnt have puppies- i had one for three days i loved so much but gthen he was gone because my mnother changed her mnond about him kind of like the little afrocan am,erican boy she adopted from tennessee and then left in NZ with a szealous crazed seventh day adventist famu=ily the only africna american in NZ, she changed her mnond about him too.
and only thing left for her to pick on was one of my half isters the one frances tolerates- and i dont lie her ecause she took so much abuse and doesnt speak to the woman abnymore but her self image is so low as is aid its contagious beinga rpound her desperation that runs through allthe half siblings this needy desperate loneliness. from a totallys elf involved and non physcial mother, imperious in abadway not a cute way like frances- who redefined frosty, the woman was ius an icicle and aliar, what a liar, i knwo how she lives with ehrslerf she has nos ense of her own responsibility and no connection to her core or her karma ro teh cosmis law that state sthat any negatove cause you make against another comes back to you times seven. thats not just wiccaN thats in almost every majpr world religion, the times seven part, even in arcane chistianity.
you give it out yout get it back
so to you i wish positive love live and happiness and escape with trashy tv sometimes too.
russells coming next week or the week after i forget but were gonna have fun a more charming man doesnt exist. well have sooooo much fun.
love courtney and may you have many good friends and lots and lots of laughter
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