Wednesday, July 27th, 1994 Friday, July 29th, 1994

Wednesday, July 27th,  1994

OK KOOL get me to thee net…..i just dont wanna sidle anywhere near Albini and his horde of math rockers…..please post this magic question…..tell me someone why the hell i am iconoclastic re;gen eccchhhh but have not sold as much as the Breeders(and the answer is NOT that we suck and i dress funny and married a rockstar-and you know it fishdick) why do i get mail from Cher,asked to uh…”come down to the set” by Demi(I hear you math boy and i most certainly did no such thing-you just want it) a VERY UNWELCOME-NON PARTICIPANT upcoming Peeple and E Weekly cover? What fuking happened to the Pixies? You remember before the deconstruction,dismemberment and (thank YOU mr Corgan,oh by the way William im carrying your own little Billy-funny how that happened with your WIFE in the damm room-gee shes liberal)DISARMENMENT of me and mine? When you could start a band get a little bigger than the German Circuit-doesANYONEREMEMBERTHEGERMANCIRCUITWELL IT WASNTMUCHFUCKINGFUNTHATSWHAT-make a bit of dosh,be big in the UK and only be recognized by clerks at roughTrade? calling me a big media whore in those days was fine it was true-i love nothing more than pissing on my phlegmatic,pointy nosed evil witch in a low rent industry jobbed peersHAHA or omething along those lines-but this..this is and has been ridiculous and Noam Chumsky has NOT provided the answer,if anyone knows Jason Cohen author of said,Generation ecccchhh,pls tell him (im serious) he is my Jewish prince, i want an answer AND a date. Janet Billig says he even talks that way,tell him itll make the Star and then he can ponder this quest in an even new light-should i just go back to college?Bennington!Wellesly!Harvard!!!!…uh…..EVERGREEN!!!!!!!! IVe only got 2 terms left for a nifty degree in guess what……THATS RIGHT!THE SAME AS ALL THE REST OF YOU!!!!………LIBERAL ARTS!!!!!!!!!we all know how far that gets us in our streamlined modern world,the world of the fast track and the information superhighway! YOU JUST WON AN INTERN JOB AT MTV AND I AM GROSSLY OVER FAMOUS!!!!For what? writing-sorry you know its true-very good very obvious English major lyrics and listenin g to The Psychedelic Furs and PIL way too much.?okay okay ill do snl but only cos Jeanne Garofolo joined the cast and Patti very much knows shes gaygaygay.Im sorry if ive upset your concept of celebrity by actually participating in this,but HEY! your concept of celebrity was just boomer handed to you anyways…see,just like Thurston….IM ACCESSIBLE!I LIVE IN A HOUSE! I HAVE A CHILD!I AM HUMAN!THE LIVINGHIEROPHANT! THE COVER OF MS.AND ESQUIRE THE SAME MONTH!AND IT ISNNT A CONTRADICTION! I MUST BE…..WAIT FORIT….A FEMMENIST(Thanx Noam) okay fuckoff peace love empathy and kiss my ass…. 2 more things;id like to pot a very public apology to Nils Bernstien for being a lame ass and accusing him of something he did not do,it would be boring to try to excuse myself so i wont. also,guess what ponies?I DONT DO HEROIN!!!!!thats right, I hardly ever have so blow me,its gross and its DIRTY.now ive really let you down…im sorry…maybe SARAH MCCLACHLEN DOES..COS SHE THINKS I DO…COS ITS CHIC AND KOOL…. bye now Courtney,no no dumbass not TORI,Courtney. AND NO MORE FUCKING MID SUICIDE E MAIL-CALL THE FUCKING HOTLINE OR WRITE TO VEDDER -IM ROOF BORNE MYSELF STOP IT YOU LITTLE ALTERNATEEN BRATS!!! COURTNEY,AND THE BLOOD IS DRIPPING ONTO THE NOTEPAD……WELL YOUR SUCKING MINE AND ILL LIVE THRU THE NUCLEAR WINTER LIKE ITOR NOT…..i can see it now…rambling,incoherent,POOR TYPING SKILLS !!!publish at your own peril,i promise to be very very pissed…… AND

Friday, July 29th, 1994

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take this down if you want; its him al his present studio references were accurate,i thought you meant j mascis! he told me last week he went through all this stuff net and aol. we laughed at how no one accused him of the scratches ,i mean the “scratches” on my back at Mtv dumb thing,cos hes such a big homo…ha…not,both ways if you must know,my bad typing is proof im high were as his are just ‘cute’-i love him. the orig. lp title was;’Exploding head” ,Thurston sings on a song called”Crush with Eyeliner” i was there..sample lyric…”Shes three miles of bad road” thank you,uncle mike”shes a sad Tomato” and a song re;Kurt that had us bboth bawling like babies….i was screaming “the snare dammit” and got to fake mix one w/ litt Kurt stylee-marshalls way up and fucking snare snare snare -au naturale-berry walked in on my ..uh “mix” and sed wheres the damm ORGAN-oh well i tried- it IS really rock and raw and my fave for a long long time-kinda punk even….in a remmy way…he doesnt believe in this dammed 4th wall either ,he is truly well adjusted,parents/family all great….i wish hed love me, sometimes i think he feels-sory isnt right,but dutiful re; me…. thats why i kep a little distance but boy does he ever have a bbullshit detector…he sees right though my bulshit- i cant pull ANYTHING over on him. Any way its him he told me…and Corgans are authentic too,some 14 yr old thought a fake Billy was in love w/ her and he got PISSED an posted….aol owes me bux,i made them bux w this publicity!








hey did you like that? I did, but we both know illpay anpay and pay for being such a bad mother and a bad girl and posting in the cobweb….fuck do it anyway,and yes if its no bother drag me back all my Finnish pointy nosed friends posting unless they are beyond dumb…ie.and Grohl had to be physically restrained,and she was in Kristens bathroom,and she killed him for the insurance,and she did cartwheels and stole my grandmas heirloom diamond and pawned it for her and Stipe and gave me syphilis and i know COS I WAAS THERE….fuck,that too,thatsthee FUN stuff anyways. GOD!!!Ilove my Wonderbra! post this too,lets just have an orgygoo fest,fuckwithme,fuckwithme,fuckwithme,