ball belles and bluebells
ibve never MET Peter Dohertty! Ive never spoken to Pete - No wait i did once on t he phone, aboput rehabs, PETE DOHERTY? OMG it must be a slopw news week- whata sad kid and needs help so much and sure id help himn but im DATING himn! i dont KNOW the guy!!!!!!
as for that drummer well hes hit on me so many times hes justa very v ery conflicted guy about me wich is why he continually writes songs about me to hear he “hates” me mor ethan “anyone else” is just amUsing- Kurt loathed HIM more than anyone else ( except a journalist) in his will he made a codicile that Grohl was no longer a member of Nirvana. i just ignored the guy and willcontinue to
Dave knows this, an d he takes it out on me! Hey it wasnt MY band and it wasnt MY idea!
its funny he “hates” me since i dont thin k about him - hes just sub mediocre kind of a cokehead who does this “niceguy” nonsense. theres isnt a eword he could he say that would riuffle my feathers, honestly.ANYWAY whata fun fabulous special evening!
i had a truly fabulius night lots of Lords and Ladies and Quentin ( Tarantino) who is just the best , and whow aas ispeaking of as being a loyal scorpio? oh yeah Rick Owens the designer - who the hell said this ewas Doherty? idont KNOW Pete ! Kate would kick my ass if this was trtue - she took out thios little silver bag tonight and i was shocked ( cos i recvognised it frm years back long long timne ago)
by how long weve known easc h other she wa sthe first model i ever made friends with about ten years ago maybe more now- weve had alot of adventure stogether and it was nic eto just smoke a few ciggies and be mellow and watch her world far more than mine go by,
we both wear P{enhaglions Bluebell its so lovely a lovely bluebell mist - i even wear it to bed - you can get it online but the Wynn is the one plac ein US iknow youc anget Bluebell- that Wynns cool-= i loathe vegas but i gotta say the stores at the wynn havethe most unique stuff i am obsessed with this diutch lingerie designer malie dekkers
i met a girl paula morgan who makes art out of roadkill and its gorgously sick and im defintly ingterested inb b uying some it sounds vile but its beautiful she finds dead aninals and then makes them beaiutiful again , i cant explain why this moved me but i thought it was deathly cool and i met a bespoke underwear mistress who makes lace herself an dmakes alot of Dita Von Teeses fabulous corsets and uses Couture laces and her name was Venda and shes defintly gettinga call from me too-= and i met the other night not here tonoght the lovely Mcqueen like a lovely sweet vulbnerable bear- if these people are “bitchy” i havent really seen it, theyre all sweet to me - i do think of what they do as art its a way of expressing ourselves. and to have the great honour to wear siuch an amazing piece as i did tonigh t theres even Coulottes cut in goergette on the inner draping, this dresswas made for a Couture model and for some reason they have smaller frames than even me skinny - just bones-its thyroid mostly i know they art eused ti make us feel wierd about our average weight etc so i get conflicted by all this luxury- but fuck it- im gonna have fun while the sun shines and just put in more than i get out, just keep ahea dof the eight ball in terms of charity and philanthropy. and then i can feel the enitre magical couture feeling, guilt free..l…….oh wow i wish i could descirbe to you th edifferecne just a dress can make to your esteem your feelings your posture stature it was all very 1859 in side there iwas like “wheres the laudunum morphine super strong!) and with major blush Laboutins- that were so high and pointy - but this lovely cream
Ive dicovered a Jasopanese Designer i LOVE Suzuki Takayuki- its all creamy whites and ivories and ruffs and twists,
check out his Tokyo fallcollection all i know is that he is very very young and this is earl,y days for him and hes showing so much potential- i get so inspired sometmnes bu the sartorial senses sated that it soumnds riduclous but i end up writing songs all night-
ahhhhhl….okay
im dazzled by whata golden fun evenin g i had what a gorgoues couture gown i was wearing what lovely philanthropical compassionaqte people i met the & also sticking with me from dinner not tonight but last night-
..is the sweetness of Gwyneth “Goddess” Paltrow whose m aybe the nicest person on this earth, ( other than Trudie Styler well i have a pretty long list these days but those two are simply outstanding humnan beings in way most of us just aspire to be)
whats outside is not even a clue of how compassionate , loyal and cool she is inside- i know, i know its sick- someone that beuatiful could be even MORE beautiful spiritually and with such a goldfen heart inside- even more by about ten times- i used to glower at her glow iwa stotally jealous of it i realize now and im rarely ever jealous- but ive realised in the last year how great and abundant a human being she is, always puttin g other s before her- never making the quote “wrong move” cos shes got amazin g clarity, hardcore intellect by such a long shot that i dont think shes given credit for- social awareness, perfect balance wihc she works hard to achieve and crytsal intuition and just hasnt crashed and burned and wont- man i love/ adore that girl- sorry to get sappy/ namedroppy but i cant express a l;ittle4 negativity/boredom/bleh /bemusement at these people who just MAKE SHIT UP ABOUT ME, and how utterly miserable they are wich is what they seem to all have a common,is a deep self loathing yet the people at the top of thie rgame seem to have unlimited self esteem wichg leaves so much more room for the Law of the Universe.i could have a pity party at the way the blogbloids perceive me an dthe people who are so lopwend they just kick me an dthey are doin g it co s i gues stheymiust think im down?
WOW!
im so NOT down thats the irony -
I couldnbt be more UP@!!!!!! God! i have so much positve an dlovely in my life now sweet little secret romances and lovely things- and people and a kid who is a brainaic but cool and beautiful and OMG! so socially adept! heh, i love that!
i willno longer tolerate toxic people abusive people or liars in my world or life whereas i used to- i couldnt be more productive or busy and i couldnt feel better about the future and as of today my team for the future- ia dore all of them and they seem to really believe in me and no way in HELL could i pull off this herculean effort - imagine 100 sit ups twice /three a day!!!! Without that positive energy behind me from very powerful souls. - but its haaaaaarrrd- imasgine that many oblique crunches a day even- this
is what it feels like some times of
mixing this record doing the art and going back for the LAST SESSION with Goddess of my World Linda Perry another human being who is wildly amazingly succesful….an is empathic compassionate and has a heart of gold an dmy best interests at heart always and works so hard on this record and treats me with dignity and respect wich i know i deserve , and i deserve no less, thats a tough one to figure out,
but youve gotta if you wanna activate the Laws odf attractiona nd cause and effect ina positive eway take no shit from anyone and people have abused this imgiinary image persona that i “take no shit from anyone ” in the past to truly hurt me-
and what do all these truly succesful people have in common- from Bono Drew Stipe my lawyer and partner Howard my yoda and friend Alan- Woody- Edward/ Bennett/ Marc Jacobs./ Testino/ Lachapelle/ Brett(Ratner)? Cameron, Lagerfeld? THEY ARE ALL REALLY GENUINLeY NICE GOOD PEOPLE
I DONT KNOW ONE PERSON IN THE RAREFIED AIR OF THAT LEVEL OF SUCCESS WHO IS MEDIOCRE OR MEAN SPIRITED OR LESS THAN WISE!@ OR a DICK!!!
i don t mean some reality show / crap music judge/ festival booker or some mediocre self loathing drug abusing nasty little man with sexually conflicted feelings for me wich hes expressed more than once in =his heavy breathing monster jocko way - i mean TRULY succesful at life at family at love at self love- have in common-= they lovethemselves , have un limited self esteem wicch putds them in th eposition to put others happiness beftore thier own-
the V and A museaum is beuatiful and i was honoured to be there i met the Fabulous an dv ery charistmaticf and beaiutiful Amanda Herlech ( sic) and had a surreal slow strange in tandem walk with the editrix of American Vogue who people always slam becaiuse she has so much power in fashion, but i saw whata vulnerable woman she was tonight just by her energy and felt bad - shes also a soft ..asking when people tell me the latest nonsense from the blogoids- so much shit- some stated as fact and some people
just cheesy people id not really get caught dead with they are so toxic and i feel they aqre in so much animality an dhunger aqn dhell they really need help
slagging mne for no appranert reason….i mm at a loss as to why but i guess that lower end oft the herd doesnt know me and doesnt know what to do with me so they just go negative an dprint uglypics an dphotoshop them, and they just dont know what to do with me - its takes a tough skin to not have a pity party about it but god/ buddha /dna gave me bionic bootstraps and im not going anywhere- im swingin from the trees blazin and itll be such fun! i suppose
nooone understands the mixing/ finishing/ cover art band bonding moment it takes on the eve ( give or take a few months) of a CD youve worked on harder an d purer than anythinmg else youve ever worked on - so i guess im in this void without much context what do thes epeoples hateful comments have to do with my world? Nothing.
At my worst i would never give drugs to a 15 year old( i believe he was 18 at this time shes speaking of actually) but i CAN say without getting too far into it-= that the kid did give me pills from his dads massive stash, if his mother honestly believes that 7 year old hooey - hed better clear it up i would imagine,
cos the Universe notices EVERYTHING WE DO , every thougfht word and deed, BUT im 90% sure her and Grohl know they are spewingNonsense - know they ar ebearing false witness and its just my karma-= i wish i hadnt been goaded in to sayin g something totally true about a tabloid star Brit comedy person
-i do not make it a policy to comment to tabloids- or even to “clear things up”
business- this latest round of bloid/blog retarded photoshoppinga nd i must say these FOOLISH people thinking NOW is a great time to kick me with - Christ at least tell the truth= dont Llie!!!!
i just snapped im not perfect it would have been better to just talk to friends ofrfriends but i had been doingthat= anyway im not tablpoid sally and certainly itw asnt said oyt of vin dictiveness- or bithcinness it juist happens to be true that some people need to get well , szome people are truly truly sick , i certianly was no saint - in some different areas than that= in other words its a long asssed story and forget it!
5000 rows of heandsewn ruching with seed pearls imbedded in it- the way the sequins and pellets laid down the references to animality and whats undrneath skin the cerebral nature of Givenchy now, How much pressure there is to run a house not only must you think of Spring Fall Couture- Cruise Resort Pre Fall with hundreds of pieces shoes,accesoires , coats , pants, dresses and every piece must be GREAT
have a dialect in every department
but you must also be a steward of the perfume and the sunglasses and the underwear an dthe jeans and things p[eople can afford and you mnust rebrand the place after many many years of some sor tof neglect - i Locve Riccardo his Couture show =changed the way i saw things was like takinga powerful mind altering permanent hallucingen -= it was art truly truly art.
the way the drapes laid down was amazing - it was such an honour to bethere-such an honour to be wearing true couture and to be supporting this genius- he says im his “muse” or one of them apperently !i love that ! i mean what a delight! a treat!
in my dorky litle skteches ive been doing of things i wish existed i realise how little i know even though ive studied fashion as muchas cinema or music, littl ethings pop up when im ripping thru ten years of “Collezion” the fabrics opf lacroix
i FINALLY getthe genius of Gaultier- and smaller things like Vera Wang is really acool designer of clothinga nd so is John Rochas and Antonio Marras, a guy i found Marc Bihan Khaki Vietnam jackets over tulle and kick boots the GENIUS of my stylist Panos, wich is acknowledged by one and all, HES a magician and his aesthetic is amazing he has said no to every cleb rity and he only has beena fter me anmd someone else, i amn so honoured by our deepening friendshipa nd the energy he puts into me and getting me calibrated correctly again in this world and how much awe and respect people have for him as they should - i forgetthe exact addreses just look at his editorials i did rthe other day i think he shoudl design= its called Intrepid it must be .co.uk or agency…im not surre but lookat his imagination and your in for such a treat he really is a poet.
i adore and worship at the altar of Dame Westwood,a dn we had the funniest discussion too, sh etells me this story of some disscusion we had when iwas just begginig to get “out sick”
apparently i asked Dame Vivienne for a guitar designed by her , now i cannot recall this discussion but it was mor ethan embarssing that we spoke fo rsonething like 2 hours accoriding to her-= i remember talkingt to someone about the things she sai dwe discussed= but my god- i worship her- and felt so retarded that ic ouldnt recall these hour son the phone with her!
all in all a very glorious loveley evening a ball in london
Lords and Lasdiesw and Princesses and it was alla glow and a twinkle very un rock n roll excptthe kid whop ia cidently made wise with =- iw as so puzzled but upon refelction i think he was far more nervous to be in that company than m e - im very confortab le in that environement- its good clean people with alot going on and alot to give and its a posotive c reative environment especially ifyour meeting such cool people , ogh i could go on but my fat little feet seem to fit some kind of glass slipper occasionally - im mor ethan fortunate to be able to have fantastical adventures like this-
and dear darling people who are leaders and see me for me and dont buy into that other nonsense- even though idont think anyone is treated quite so off kilter a si am - this stream of noize about me drinking or trashing rooms etc-= its just nonsense and all these people have gone thru it themselv es and if they havent they just dont give a shit, so itw as jiust a golden Ball and i had a fantastic evening thanks to the Genius of Riccardo and my God My God the way this man desigsn his positivity and enthusiasm and dazzlinggenius- Hubert Givenchy is happy on the other side ,,,,,,,that is for sure.
well the suns up im so inspired i have Tarantinos mad beuatiful stream of cosnscoiuness running through my head…… talk about a maverick……. it gave me great ideas to see allthese shrines to the sartorial arts anmd i recomend this exhibition highly…..( also Bluebell- you wont look back!)
love blession g happiness to all
what i learned today:
sometime syou gotta just suck up the crud atthe bottom of the barrel or you winthave the opportunity fo rthe cream at the top of your coffee.
love
call me Miz Love Baby!
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